Hanging?? Drowning?? Guns??? Ahhh

[Iwishiwasafrog]

Which one do I freaking choose... I never learned how to swim but I hear drowning sounds kind of scary and I wouldn't want the opportunity to even think about changing my mind. Also I would like my body to be found before the fishies start munching :/ Same with hanging though, how long does it take for you to actually become unconscious?? Seems better than drowning I suppose now that I think about it. I just bought and am getting help with An AR 15 build. My (recently ex) boyfriend is obsessed with guns he knows all the workings and models and switches out parts between like 30 of his guns he owns. I'm leaning towards that method only because it will be instant and quick, bam boom you're done. My only hangups are 1) Will I have a face left???? How messy would a 556 bullet to the brain be?? And 2) It is his passion and obsession. We dated for 3 years and I know my death will be traumatizing already but I don't want to ruin guns for him for the rest of his life. Maybe I'm thinking about it too much I don't know.. I considered SN but I don't have any prescription meds or even a doctor or know where to buy SN or any of that stuff. It all seems so complicated and I honestly don't want to wait long to ctb. I've never made even an attempt before but I've dealt with suicidal ideation my entire life and I would like this time to be the only time I try.

 

[NaughtyGirl]

Don't shoot yourself with a rifle if you're concerned with your look afterwards...

If I was doing it I'd use a handgun, at least 9mm, preferably magnum 0.357 or bigger and aim at the back of my head, aiming at the brainsteam. At such close distance I don't think it's possible to misalign the shot enough to survive. Hollow point ammunition is probably the safest bet.

 

[Iwishiwasafrog]

I figured that lol. dunno why I'm so worried about what my face will look like afterwards, I'll be dead don't even know if my parents are the type of people to have a an actual open casket funeral or anything. Looks like I might just go with ye ol hanging because the only hand guns available to me are my ex boyfriends and while yeah I'm gonna kill myself, I don't want to taint the thing he loves doing.

 

[meaninglesslife]

I prefer guns

 

[Wolbach]

How does one get Nembutal and other drugs to exit