Venting had a nightmare that an irl friend found my account on here

[waistcoat]

just woke up from a nightmare in which my irl friends had found my account on here.

they know i'm suicidal and a handful know that i use this site, so it isn't too outside of the realm of possibility.

it was terrifying. i don't want any of them to know how low i've gotten :(
i hope it stays as a nightmare and never becomes real.

 

[Afterglow]

for your sake I hope it stays that way as well.

 

[Linda]

just woke up from a nightmare in which my irl friends had found my account on here.

they know i'm suicidal and a handful know that i use this site, so it isn't too outside of the realm of possibility.

it was terrifying. i don't want any of them to know how low i've gotten :(
i hope it stays as a nightmare and never becomes real.

Perhaps you shouldn't worry about it. If they really are your friends, finding your account on here would only make them try a little harder to help you. If they are not real frinds, why should you care what they think?

 

[waistcoat]

Perhaps you shouldn't worry about it. If they really are your friends, finding your account on here would only make them try a little harder to help you. If they are not real frinds, why should you care what they think?

i understand the sentiment, but it's more a case of i need an outlet away from them, i don't think they'd be particularly surprised by anything i have written here, i just would like a place without them