I hate my father so much. Everytime he speaks I want to die. I don't want to hear him, see him, or deal with his bullshit anymore.
On the other hand my mom has been nothing but good to me and now she's battling cancer. Whenever I try to make my mind about attempting I feel so much guilt that I'd be leaving her with an asshole husband. I wish he'd leave us alone. Some times I imagine how my life would've turned out if they'd been divorced or if he died when I was young.
I wish both my parents were abusive so that I would've died without guilt.
On the other hand my mom has been nothing but good to me and now she's battling cancer. Whenever I try to make my mind about attempting I feel so much guilt that I'd be leaving her with an asshole husband. I wish he'd leave us alone. Some times I imagine how my life would've turned out if they'd been divorced or if he died when I was young.
I wish both my parents were abusive so that I would've died without guilt.
