Growing less with fear

[jimmy7754]

As I'm dealing with this unrelenting pull of depression day to day.. I am growing less and less fear of death.. it is definitely something that is unknowable but I'm learning that in time it will be a great relief from the pressure..

 

[WhyBotherAnymore?]

I understand how you feel. I have spent a good portion of today thinking about how to end my life. I'm thinking jumping off a bridge about 45m above ground - bit of a popular place for ending things. The more I think about it, the more I realize - 'Why am I just getting up every day and going through the motions?' and 'Everyone would be fine if I were to just end it.'
The fear of death is fading. Fingers-crossed I will get to the point I'm ready, sooner rather than later!

 

[jimmy7754]

I understand how you feel. I have spent a good portion of today thinking about how to end my life. I'm thinking jumping off a bridge about 45m above ground - bit of a popular place for ending things. The more I think about it, the more I realize - 'Why am I just getting up every day and going through the motions?' and 'Everyone would be fine if I were to just end it.'
The fear of death is fading. Fingers-crossed I will get to the point I'm ready, sooner rather than later!

Hey! People think I'm crazy that I want to jump.. but I completely relate to this.. I want to go by jumping also.. It's the only method I think I can fully commit to..

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that it must be a relief to be becoming less fearful of death. After all, death is inevitable for us all, and to me it is not something to be feared. I do not fear death at all, instead I fear life itself and the method failing. I believe that there is nothing after this, death is true peace and freedom from all suffering and that thought comforts me.

 

[lostmyacc]

If you still have fears I think you're not ready. Sadly it might take years to get to position where you are willing to die.
Meaning you will suffer probably. My advise is try see if you can dig deep inside you and find something worthwhile to stay, if doesn't it workout consider your options.

 

[WhyBotherAnymore?]

Hey! People think I'm crazy that I want to jump.. but I completely relate to this.. I want to go by jumping also.. It's the only method I think I can fully commit to..

Not crazy at all!! It just seems to make sense doesn't it? Just need that single moment of commitment and that's it! Can't undo it once you start! Life is hard work and just wears you down. There are brief points of getting by, but on the whole, life is a slog and I'm just about out of gas!!!

 

[GentleJerk]

Attaboy Jim.