Discussion Goodbye Thread

[sels]

I hope you find peace in whatever form it takes, rigsid. But I hope that it comes before you have to take this step.

All the best.

 

[rigsid]

If you are in Germany I would offer to meet and give you a long hug ^^

This most likely won't be the case and I am obviously still a total stranger, so instead if you just need another soul to text, to vent to, just let me know <3

I know how it feels like
I know how terrible it all is
And I will ultimately exit myself

But as long as I am here I gladly would like to help in any way possible

I've vented a lot to a lot of different people but honestly speaking it doesn't help much.

Thank you for the kind offer though. I'll take it up if I feel like I need it.

 

[Malfunction]

I wish you peace, though preferably in life.

I hope that things go smoothly.

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you deserve

 

[MephiticShadow]

Love and peace to you.

 

[rigsid]

Hotel booked and off work until the weekend. Now I just wait. 2 nights left.

 

[sadpeaceful_snorlax]

Wishing you well!! I hope it's peaceful

 

[rigsid]

Last full day of my life today I hope. Have spent it asleep 13 hours and in bed the rest. Haven't had the energy to make food and the kitchen is almost empty.

I think only a couple people will actually miss me. Most of my friends from my school days will probably not even realize as I've lost contact with all of them. I haven't made many friends otherwise, not even online friends.

Im happy ill no longer be a ball of hopelessness and negativity that drags people down soon.

 

[rigsid]

Pretty lonely today. Not really sure what to do like most days. Looking forward to tomorrow.

I tried to order food to cheer me up, to no avail.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace

 

[Bimbosqualo]

Pretty lonely today. Not really sure what to do like most days. Looking forward to tomorrow.

I tried to order food to cheer me up, to no avail.

How are you spending these hours? Are you already at the hotel? What good food did you order?

 

[rigsid]

How are you spending these hours? Are you already at the hotel? What good food did you order?

No hotel is tomorrow. Also mostly just doing nothing and messaging friends. Saying goodbye.

 

[Bimbosqualo]

No hotel is tomorrow. Also mostly just doing nothing and messaging friends. Saying goodbye.

I hope you find freedom from suffering

 

[rigsid]

Last day today. I woke up with insomnia for the first time in ages. My mind really wants me to suffer huh?

Oh well, I'll be gone soon.

 

[ilovenewyork]

A part of you is rethinking this

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Sending love and hugs. Whatever happens, I wish you only the best. So many things must be going through your mind, we are here if you wanted to share something?

 

[rigsid]

A part of you is rethinking this

Please don't tell me how I'm thinking. Comments that don't take me seriously have always made me worse. I'm very sure about this.

Sending love and hugs. Whatever happens, I wish you only the best. So many things must be going through your mind, we are here if you wanted to share something?

Not much more to say. I've realised ill not really miss the world. It has never wanted me.

 

[rigsid]

Ok well, I hope a part of you is rethinking this. Because once that meat tenderizer goes down your throat there is no backing out. Come Thursday they'll be incinerating your body.

Okay? This is a suicide forum can you please just let me have some peace in community before I go? I've come here to avoid statements like this.

I really don't want to be convinced.

 

[ilovenewyork]

Okay

 

[CaramelAppleStars]

I hope you find peace I'm also sorry about the people taking you less than seriously, they are your struggles to live through, and deciding not to is your choice alone to make

 

[socksnsandles]

good luck. see you on the other side if there is one

 

[rigsid]

I hope you find peace I'm also sorry about the people taking you less than seriously, they are your struggles to live through, and deciding not to is your choice alone to make

Thank you for the kind words. You're right. I could keep fighting but ive chosen not to because the pain is too much.

I know it's sad to see someone die, but suffering is sad too.

 

[geepeedee]

good luck. hope you find some peace.

 

[blush]

i really really hope you find peace, it pains me every time fellow trans ppl think about this path. especially when i see we're probably quite similar. i'm sorry life's brought u here. you deserve light. sending love ❤❤❤

 

[rigsid]

i really really hope you find peace, it pains me every time fellow trans ppl think about this path. especially when i see we're probably quite similar. i'm sorry life's brought u here. you deserve light. sending love ❤❤❤

It is sad that so many trans people end up like this. Thanks for the kind words.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Wishing you peace hope it all goes smoothly.

 

[rigsid]

Finalized my note. I'm going to attach it to my discord on a dead man's switch using timeseal.online.

What I wrote ended up being pretty depressing but oh well. I don't think I have it in me to be motivational.

Getting ready atm to go. Bag packed with what I need. Last cup of tea drank.

 

[yume_]

Goodbye, wishing u the best!
Sending love and hugs.

 

[rigsid]

Thanks for all the kindness everyone. Arriving at the hotel in 3 hours. Then I'll take my anxiety med and wait for that to start working. Then I'll prepare the potion.

Only concern atm is I feel a bit nauseous. Probably from the fasting. If that gets too much worse I might need to abort. Taking pre emptive paracetamol.

 

[rigsid]

An hour left now until I can check in at the hotel. My phone and backup battery ran out really fast so I'm not sure if I'll able to keep updating you all.