Goodbye thread (maybe)

[yep]

Hey guys sorry for being gone for so long, when I said I was going to do it last time I basically chickened out. Now I'm here again and I have the sn made and I did all the before stuff. I just don't know how to get past the hump of actually doing it. When ever I finally get the balls to get close to doing it i always back out. If I do end up getting a grip I'll let you guys know how it goes.

 

[KleinerWolf]

you should only proceed if you are completely fine with it.

don't ever feel pressured.

 

[muffin222]

If the hesitation is there and is preventing you from being able to go through with ctb, I would take that as a sign that you're not ready and are not fully at peace with dying.

I would take heed of that feeling and wait before proceeding. It's better to suffer a little bit longer and be completely sure of your decision than to do something irreversible that you're not 100% sure of.

I wish you the best of luck with whatever you decide to do

 

[the_final_countdown]

What usually helps me is putting on a YouTube hypnosis video about meditation.

I just lay there, not really paying attention to anything in particular.

Calms me down, then I can get a sense of what I want to do.

Usually the suicidal ideation is highest right before some event happens where the responsibility I have is highest.

 

[yep]

If the hesitation is there and is preventing you from being able to go through with ctb, I would take that as a sign that you're not ready and are not fully at peace with dying.

I would take heed of that feeling and wait before proceeding. It's better to suffer a little bit longer and be completely sure of your decision than to do something irreversible that you're not 100% sure of.

I wish you the best of luck with whatever you decide to do

It's not really that I don't want to die it's the fear of the unknown but you do make a good point . Anyways thank you for your advice I really appreciate it.

you should only proceed if you are completely fine with it.

don't ever feel pressured.

Thanks I will try not too

What usually helps me is putting on a YouTube hypnosis video about meditation.

I just lay there, not really paying attention to anything in particular.

Calms me down, then I can get a sense of what I want to do.

Usually the suicidal ideation is highest right before some event happens where the responsibility I have is highest.

I've never heard someone using hypnosis, if I don't ctb I'll have to try it.

 

[yep]

Worst thang I ever fucking tasted
Legit disgusting
I think I'm going vomit

 

[kohaku]

Worst thang I ever fucking tasted
Legit disgusting
I think I'm going vomit

I agree, the taste is terrible.
Good luck.

 

[yep]

My feet are already purple

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Are you OK? How's it going?

 

[Sensei]

Are you really sure this is what you want to do?

 

[FluffyDove]

This is what I'm like. I want to be gone but don't want to actually die.

I hope you have peace now

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I think they've gone, last seen 27 minutes ago. RIP

 

[FluffyDove]

I think they've gone, last seen 27 minutes ago. RIP

Maybe they've called for help. They didn't seem sure of their decision

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Maybe they've called for help. They didn't seem sure of their decision

Maybe, we won't know unless they come back to update us, but for now, I think we can assume they've gone.

 

[kohaku]

Hope to hear from you soon if you're alive. If not, rest in peace. There's no more fear for you in the afterlife.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Rest In Peace.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

@Meditation guide
I believe @yep has passed.

 

[stygal]

Hopefully they made a peaceful and painless transition

 

[justsad&done]

I hope you are at peace and have found comfort

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm sorry life has brought you here. These things aren't easy. I hope that you've had a peaceful transition. And if you decide to come back, know that we're here for you. Hugs.

 

[Wakawaka]

Sad I might've missed your goodbye :(, if your still here I hope you're safe, if not rest in peace

 

[yive]

 

[Daveyjones]

<3 hopefully you found what you were looking for.

 

[NegativeSymptoms]

RIP

 

[MAIO]

This is what I'm like. I want to be gone but don't want to actually die.

I hope you have peace now

Most don't want to go through the experience of dying as it's generally considered very unpleasant although it can be quicker than falling asleep. Unless you are going to be surrounded by supportive people/person who going to fulfill some need. Ie someone telling you it's okay to die as you pass on.

Maybe they've called for help. They didn't seem sure of their decision

It can be hard to go through even if you are sure as so many chemicals etc pump through your brain before the end and SN overdose can be pretty reversible especially if they didn't follow the anti-nausea regimen. I just hope they got whatever is best for them.

 

[Thanatonaut]

Hope you found peace.