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antithesis

antithesis

myriads
Sep 9, 2025
25
Follow-up on this thread

I have been planning to ctb this way for 2-3 weeks now, after many years of depression, past attempts, cries for help, spending my energy on alternatives just to stop "surviving life" or crawling in circles.
I have realized after trying many, many other solutions, that the burden of my traumas is too heavy. That I will never be free from it all. That living will always be extremely tiring, unsatisfying, and painful.
I did my best, but I really want to let go of everything and be free from it all, and I hope everyone can respect this decision as much as possible.
I will CTB:
Tuesday 16 September around 8:00 am GMT (in 12h)
At home, alone, peacefully

I will follow the SN stat protocol from PPEH book 2023

- 8 hours alone time, after which I will be discovered
- SN purity has been tested
- 3 glasses will be prepared in case
- 1000mg paracetamol
- dopamine antagonist antiemetic
- bromazolam as sedatives
- tiny cold water sip to help aftertaste
Please do not ask me sources or tips. If you feel miserable and see no way out, you will find your ways, I promise, through ctb or through recovery.

My closed ones will get access to all my passwords and accounts after my death, so do not be bothered by the "Last seen" on my profile.
You will know I'm gone if I don't reply in the next 24h.



Resources:
 
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avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

nothing
Nov 28, 2024
367
I'm really sorry you've reached this point and you feel you have to leave now. I hope that whatever happens, you have peace. Take good care 🌹
 
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nool

nool

He who has not tasted grapes says sour
Aug 17, 2025
108
Hope you find your peace🫂🫂
 
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qewpie

qewpie

body so broken
Aug 3, 2025
49
may the weather be fair for your travels~ and may you reach peace.
 
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fsteles

fsteles

Member
Aug 17, 2025
5
Lux Aeterna
 
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Firefly.Forest

Firefly.Forest

Member
Aug 28, 2025
76
I wish you peace in your journey.
 
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thebox_123

thebox_123

Member
Sep 14, 2025
41
May you find what you are looking for.
 
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manchuman123

manchuman123

looking for the peace i crave
Aug 10, 2025
30
safe travels friend, hope you find peace.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Wizard
Jul 9, 2025
624
I'm so sorry for you. I hope you'll find peace 🕊️
 
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fuyuu

fuyuu

Member
Aug 26, 2025
14
goodbye and hope you have a peaceful journey
 
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[Lord Void]

[Lord Void]

Member
Sep 14, 2025
40
I'm sorry it's come to this. Wishing you the best in whatever comes next
 
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wishingonstars

wishingonstars

Student
Aug 6, 2025
102
I hope you find peace🫂
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
160
I wish you a peaceful departure.
 
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The Blackangel

The Blackangel

Nyiach des uti nesi deh ahy.
Nov 3, 2018
217
May you find the peace in death that eluded you in life.
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
272
I'm so sorry you've reached this decision. I hope your transition is peaceful and you finally find your peace on the other side. Good luck🕊️
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Enlightened
May 10, 2025
1,460
good luck, I hope you find relief from suffering 🫂:heart:
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,164
Love, peace and all the best.
 
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PI3.14

PI3.14

what is chaos to the fly is normal to the spider
Oct 4, 2024
297
Sorry that it came to this. I wish you peace.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,017
I hope you find peace. Good luck!
 
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dogwolfybark

dogwolfybark

Are you too much for anyone?
Sep 2, 2025
13
good luck, im sorry you had to struggle all this time. may you find peace.
 
antithesis

antithesis

myriads
Sep 9, 2025
25
I'm a little early in the protocole
it's 7am GMT rn
I have taken the rest of the meds from the procedure, broma will kick in very soon
I'm about to drink sn solution ☺️
gulp
salty af and throat irritating, like drinking salty water
small cold water sip helps aftertaste
now, good night all
 
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avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

nothing
Nov 28, 2024
367
I'm in the same time zone as you... maybe you are already gone on this nice breezy morning. I hope it all went as you planned it 🖤
 
decayingdoll

decayingdoll

✚𓏼 ̣̣ 🦴 ༷𓈒‿ 𑣿
Sep 15, 2025
24
i hope your journey was peaceful. i may not have known you, but i'm truly sorry for how the world treated you. rest in peace. i will always remember you ♡
 
uzl lover

uzl lover

shy and autistic murder drones & helluva boss fan.
Aug 22, 2025
11
Goodbye. I hope your CTB attempt was peaceful, fast, painless, and successful. ❤
 

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