gonna try ligature strangulation tonight!

[w1dow]

Hoping this does the trick. Ill try for a bit while my parents are asleep tn.

I feel bad for my friends, theyre also going through tough times and i feel like all i do is complain about how much i wanna ctb and how dysphoric and miserable i am. But theyre a lot stronger than me.

Anyways, not gonna be for a few more hours so I get to be bored for a bit :p

 

[hihi2027]

What made you want to go with this method? I hope its peaceful for you

 

[w1dow]

What made you want to go with this method? I hope its peaceful for you

Ease mainly, its quite easy for me to commit to something I can do in my own room. I was gonna try blackout drowning but frankly i can barely get out of my room nevertheless get all the way to the park to drown myself in the pond lol. Plus, I really wouldn't want kids to find my body. I also just dont have any good pills, best case is some vyvanse and lithium, but the vyvanse is a tiny dose and lithium poisoning sounds like an awful way to go

 

[hihi2027]

Ease mainly, its quite easy for me to commit to something I can do in my own room. I was gonna try blackout drowning but frankly i can barely get out of my room nevertheless get all the way to the park to drown myself in the pond lol. Plus, I really wouldn't want kids to find my body. I also just dont have any good pills, best case is some vyvanse and lithium, but the vyvanse is a tiny dose and lithium poisoning sounds like an awful way to go

Oh wow, does it require that much set up? I'm looking into methods myself that are easy to do

 

[w1dow]

Oh wow, does it require that much set up? I'm looking into methods myself that are easy to do

Not really, im trying with shoelace from mu boots. im just using a reef knot to make it one long continuous string, theres more info in the resource compilation sticky thread. Im not super confident in it but its worth a shot to me

 

[TylerDurdenGrace]

Not really, im trying with shoelace from mu boots. im just using a reef knot to make it one long continuous string, theres more info in the resource compilation sticky thread. Im not super confident in it but its worth a shot to me

I'll give it to you straight, since you don't deserve empty platitudes or lies. Trying to hang yourself with a shoelace is very likely to result in you not dying, and instead only injuring you. Why not put this off for a while? There is no rush to commit suicide if that is what you are set on doing. You can kill yourself any time, basically. Is there anyone who you could talk to about what you're going through? I used to feel totally hopeless in the past but things got a lot better for me. I can't promise the same will happen to you, right now you're stuck in a horrible situation where either direction will be hard, whether you choose to end your life or try to get better. Why not try to get better first, even if only for a little bit?

 

[w1dow]

I'll give it to you straight, since you don't deserve empty platitudes or lies. Trying to hang yourself with a shoelace is very likely to result in you not dying, and instead only injuring you. Why not put this off for a while? There is no rush to commit suicide if that is what you are set on doing. You can kill yourself any time, basically. Is there anyone who you could talk to about what you're going through? I used to feel totally hopeless in the past but things got a lot better for me. I can't promise the same will happen to you, right now you're stuck in a horrible situation where either direction will be hard, whether you choose to end your life or try to get better. Why not try to get better first, even if only for a little bit?

Not going for a hanging, significantly different, already kinda proved to myself it could work earlier.

Im in a shit spot and no one is really able to help me. I cant go to the hospital because they'll detransition me, I can't talk to my therapist because he'll send me to the hospital, and i cant talk to my friends because i already burden them so much with my complaining. Trust me, im not missing out on much by leaving. The only people worth living for will be better off without me.

If i fuck it up I'll keep going for a bit, but im gonna try to do this.

 

[w1dow]

Well. I tried. Couldnt get the angle right on my fatass neck for a bit. I nearly got it but the knot slipped somehow as i was passing out. Kinda lost motivation for the night :/ Nice to know it works if i ever need it ig

 

[endlesschatter]

Well. I tried. Couldnt get the angle right on my fatass neck for a bit. I nearly got it but the knot slipped somehow as i was passing out. Kinda lost motivation for the night :/ Nice to know it works if i ever need it ig

I'm so sorry that it didn't work out.
This method is very unreliable.
I have tried it as well out of desperation.
Another friend tried it, he also failed at this exact method.
May be we all need to do more homework at methods that can lead us to peace.
Wish you good luck my friend. Don't lose heart, take some rest.