Gonna CTB in the next 10 years

[qetyioxz]

I'm quite alone and I've pretty much got nothing in my future, a lot of things keep going wrong in my life and I dislike who I am.

I just want to work so my family has something for when I'm gone. I do owe it to them since have been a good family to me, so I'm obliged to do this.

I'll CTB on a beach somewhere that's out of the way at night, hopefully I'll just pass away peacefully with SN. The next 10 years will be quite a slog, but it'll be over one day.

 

[SASU-KE]

You're a champ. Your family is lucky to have you. I can understand living and feeling the way you do.

Hopeless,empty,Nothing inside. Same way for me. To decide to do this for them takes a lot.

Mind you, although I feel this way, I'm actually pretty high functioning. Have a good job, lot of hobbies, investments,I exercise,eat well .The problem is I do it mindlessly without any enthusiasm. I had a good work ethic instilled in me by my mother.

But I fucking hate life.

 

[flyingangel]

I've tried a lot of methods and either none of them worked or they were too painful for me to go through with it, so I've postponed CTBing indefinitely until I find a more suitable method, so I'm in a similar predicament. I'm trying to study and do my best at the moment so I'll have a good future.

 

[iwkmsssb]

you are very kind, to sacrifice your own self to repay what you feel like you owe to your family. must be very exhausting to be living for others. i hope life is less harsh on you and that you'll find peace in whatever form.

 

[qetyioxz]

You're a champ. Your family is lucky to have you. I can understand living and feeling the way you do.

Hopeless,empty,Nothing inside. Same way for me. To decide to do this for them takes a lot.

Mind you, although I feel this way, I'm actually pretty high functioning. Have a good job, lot of hobbies, investments,I exercise,eat well .The problem is I do it mindlessly without any enthusiasm. I had a good work ethic instilled in me by my mother.

But I fucking hate life.

I feel exactly the same way..I've just had enough.

And thanks for the encouragement man, I really appreciate it. You inspire me to succeed. It's unfortunate that people like us are the way we are, but it wasn't our fault.

I've tried a lot of methods and either none of them worked or they were too painful for me to go through with it, so I've postponed CTBing indefinitely until I find a more suitable method, so I'm in a similar predicament. I'm trying to study and do my best at the moment so I'll have a good future.

Yeah, I'm also stuck here for a little while I study, just need to give it my all. You're strong, keep doing your best.