god please just get me out of here

[PrincessInWhite]

It's time to go, I have nothing of my own, can't work, can't offer meaningful support to the people in my lives. I know I am a burden no matter how nicely people word it. I have tried every fucking thing under the sun to get better, every pill, every therapy, every habit change, changed my career and school track more times than I can count. Please god just let me get out of here. I am going with hanging but still not sure where to do it. Anywhere outside chance of getting caught, same inside the house, and I'm not sure booking a hotel will work, who knows if the room will have anything to hang from. I have slept 2 hours a night on average since January. Jesus christ I just want to rest and stop ruining everything and living in endless pain. Maybe I'll get the courage to jump.

 

[WornOutLife]

Oh dear, sorry to hear this.

Whatever happens, I just wish you lots of love and peace.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[Beachedwhale]

I'm so sorry you're feeling like this I'm feeling similarly. Too many years of failure and everyday I feel physically and emotionally worse Are you absolutely certain there's nothing you can do to help? I know I need to try everything otherwise I csnt ctb.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I'm so Sorry your hurting but there's no point in asking God for help,he turned his back on his creations a long time ago! :-(

 

[the_final_countdown]

Nobody understands. The people who come here constantly search for ways to improve their lot in life. They search and search but nothing seems to abate the pain.

I'm sorry you're in so much grief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Life can really be cruel to us and can cause us so much pain. Whatever happens I wish you well. Nobody deserves the suffering that this life gives us. We can try everything but that can lead us further into despair.

 

[Bullit]

Yeah,Princess, I think understand you. Pretty much the same. But dying is such bitter sorrow,ya might say.

 

[voyager]

Any particular reason why you're sleeping so poorly? Had that too last year. 1-3 hours max for eight months until it gradually got better. All I felt was exhaustion, but still couldn't sleep or stay asleep. Hope you can pinpoint the cause. It might not solve one's ctb issues but you'll feel a lot better.