Getting over SI

[ilovecats]

Well, I'm back again. No matter how many times I give life another chance, I end up here. Although, this time I don't want to give life another chance. Many bad things happened to me since last time I posted here. I have no reason to think that I can ever be happy.

Anyway, I really want to end this. I still have sn, but I'm not sure if it's still good. I have it since April 2023. Moreover, it's hard for me to get over SI, especially after I attempted. Since then, I can't even hold the glass, as I start shaking and gagging aggressively. I really hate myself for being like this. I keep telling myself that I'm not "suicidal enough", even if I genuinely want to be dead. I feel like a coward and like I'm trapped in this horrible life. Also, I don't have any antiemetics. Should I try with just sn? How can I get over SI? Should I try another method? I want to ctb asap

 

[swankysoup]

So did you once fail with sn before?

 

[ilovecats]

So did you once fail with sn before?

Didn't even get to swallow it. Spitted it out instantly :/

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

My SI is really bad too. I want to be dead so badly. I don't even have to guts to buy SN. You are not alone.

 

[Dot]

. Should I try with just sn? How can I get over SI? Should I try another method? I want to ctb asap

No1 cn answr thse questns fr u bt am srry tht u r feelng s/ trappd - u r defntly nt alne in tht feelng

 

[ilovecats]

No1 cn answr thse questns fr u bt am srry tht u r feelng s/ trappd - u r defntly nt alne in tht feelng

Yeah... I know :/

Although, it'd be nice to find out how to get over SI.

Thank you tho! :D

 

[ilovecats]

bump

 

[moonflow3r]

youre not a coward. taking one's own life is an extreme act our brains are wired against.