Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace from all pain and suffering.
To be at peace from all pain and suffering is just all I see as desirable in this existence so cruel and torturous that I just always saw as a mistake, to never suffer again is just all I see as desirable and in this existence of torturous suffering non-existence is just all I see as positive.

Simply just existing is enough to make me wish and hope for peace from all the suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, for me non-existence is just all I could ever see as desirable, I just hope to be free from all future pain and suffering.

 

[Defenestration]

Almost 49,000 messages this weekend.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile.
I'll always see it as so futile to exist, existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake.

I'll just always see it as so unnecessary to exist, I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just futile suffering and I suffer simply from existing, no matter what nothing would ever make me wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing, in this existence so cruel and dreadful non-existence is just the only relief for me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so cruel that just causes all this harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I'll just always find it so undesirable to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so painful to exist.
I truly will always find it so painful to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence and in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, painful mistake the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable.

I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this painful, cruel existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief from this painful existence where it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist saves me from suffering.
It truly does just save me from suffering in this existence so terrible and torturous and I'll just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence of torturous, futile suffering.

I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief and only ceasing to exist can save me from all future dreadful suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all that's desirable for me.
It truly is all I could ever see as desirable and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence so painful and torturous, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for true peace from this existence of cruelty and suffering that I just always saw as a mistake.

I just want to be free from this existence so dreadful that I just never would had chosen, for me non-existence is the positive solution, I just want to be free from all suffering, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this painful, terrible existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only wishing for this existence to be erased.
For this terrible, torturous existence to be all forgotten and erased for me is just all I could ever hope for, I just want peace from all pain and suffering, I just want to be free from this torturous, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer no matter what and in this existence of futile suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Nothing desirable about existing.
No matter what I really could never see anything desirable about existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence no matter what rather I just want some peace and in this existence so cruel and undesirable non-existence is just all I could hope for.

I'll just always see it as a burden to exist and it's one that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it, I suffer simply from being burdened with this painful, deeply undesirable existence of torturous suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence.
I truly do just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence so terrible and torturous and I'll just always just see existence as a mistake that just causes all this cruelty and suffering, no matter what all I could ever hope for is to be gone.

I just want peace from the burden of existence and simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer again, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence so cruel and dreadful, I just want to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all that could bring me peace.
It truly is all that can bring me peace from the suffering of this existence so terrible and torturous and to suffer in this existence will just always be the most cruel mistake to me, simply just existing is enough to me wish for true peace and in this existence of torturous suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as positive and desirable, all I want is to be gone. I just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally this existence so torturous and painful is all gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist is the permanent solution for me.
It truly is the permanent solution for me to find peace from all future pain and suffering in this terrible, torturous existence that is just waiting to die with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is permanent non-existence.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this torturous existence of futile suffering that I just never would had chosen that just causes and brings all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence.
I truly do suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence so terrible and cruel and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence so torturous and cruel, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only the peace of non-existence can solve for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence will always be such a terrible mistake to me.
It truly is the most terrible mistake to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so torturous and cruel, all I want is to be gone.

In this existence so torturous and cruel only non-existence can bring me any peace, I just want to be free from all suffering in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake, all that existence ever does is just cause harm and suffering, existence just tortures existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for the peace of eternal sleep.
No matter what the peace of eternal sleep is just all I could hope for and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence so terrible, cruel and torturous that I just always saw as a mistake and for me non-existence is just the only relief.

I just want to never suffer again and I'll just always see this terrible, torturous existence as just being pain and suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence will always be the most terrible, dreadful burden that just causes all this unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as result of this existence so terrible and torturous.
I truly do always suffer as a result of this existence so terrible and torturous and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want some peace and only in non-existence will I finally be at peace from the suffering of this torturous existence.

For me non-existence is just all that's positive in this existence of futile suffering, I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake and I'll just always see existing as only suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist for me wil always be positive.
It truly would always be positive for me and simply just existing is enough to make me wish and hope for peace from the terrible suffering and cruelty of this futile, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so terrible and cruel that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it, to suffer in this existence will always be so undesirable to me, I just want to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence erases everything for me.
It truly does which is why the peace of non-existence is just all I hope for, all I want is the peace of non-existence where this terrible, cruel existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone and forgotten.

I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much suffering in this existence so torturous, existence to me really is the problem and all I want is for all to be gone and forgotten in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible cruel abomination.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me could never be worth it.
It truly could never be for me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence so painful and torturous, all I want is to never suffer again, I'll always see existence as a mistake that only ever causes all this harm and suffering and tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. To suffer in this existence is always an abomination to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, all I want is peace from this existence of torturous suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the suffering of existing.
No matter what I really would just never wish for the suffering of existing and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence of futile, torturous suffering non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is just all I see as positive.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to be gone, I just hope to be free from all future pain and suffering in this existence that to me will always just be waiting to die, I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence so torturous and cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring the peace of non-existence.
No matter what the peace of non-existence is just always preferable to me and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence so terrible and cruel that I just always saw as a mistake.

All I want is for this torturous existence to be all gone for me with no more suffering and I'll just always see this dreadful, painful existence as only suffering, the true permanent peace of non-existence is just all I could see as positive in this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to suffer.
No matter what I really would never wish to suffer in this existence so torturous and cruel and for me non-existence is just all that's desirable and positive, only in non-existence will I finally be at peace from the suffering in this existence so painful that I'd just never wish for that never should had been imposed that I just always saw as the most cruel mistake.

There's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in this existence so futile and torturous, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this suffering, I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in this torturous, cruel existence.
There truly is just so much suffering in this torturous, cruel existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so terrible and cruel non-existence is just the only peace for me.

I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of this terrible, futile existence that I just always saw as a mistake that I just never would had chosen, to suffer in this existence will just always be an abomination to me and I wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all no matter what.
I truly would never wish to be conscious of anything no matter what and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again.

For me the only peace could ever lie in being permanently unconscious free from all pain and suffering, I'll just always see existence as a mistake that just causes all this terrible, dreadful suffering, I just want to never exist again, in this existence so cruel and torturous only non-existence can bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is just all I've ever hoped for.
It truly is all I've ever hoped for in this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of this terrible futile existence rather all I want is to be gone.

In this existence so torturous and dreadful non-existence is just the only peace for me, more than anything I just wish I never suffered in this existence, I just want to sleep permanently, in this existence of torturous suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence should just never be imposed.
It truly never should had been imposed and it's just so terrible how it was causing all this cruelty and suffering as a result with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just always suffer so much as a result of this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake.

In this existence of dreadful suffering non-existence is just the only peace for me, all I want is to be free from this terrible, painful existence that never should had been imposed, to suffer in this existence will just always be an abomination to me that just causes all this harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be free from the burden of existing.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is true permanent peace from the burden of existing and I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence is just all I could ever see as desirable in this existence of torturous suffering.

I'll just always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, for me ceasing to exist will just always be the positive solution, all I want is to be gone, I just hope for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of the mistake of existence.
I truly do just always suffer so much as a result of the terrible mistake of existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence of torturous suffering only non-existence can bring me peace.

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence, all I want is to be free from the terrible mistake of existence that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering, I just want this torturous existence to be all forgotten and erased for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just always the most cruel mistake.
It truly is the most cruel mistake that has only ever tortured existing beings and the fact that this existence was imposed at all will always be the most terrible, dreadful tragedy to me, I just always suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering, all that existence ever does is just cause harm.

I'll always see existence as the problem and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence so dreadful and cruel, all I want is for this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me with no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is just so much evil in existing.
There truly is so much evil in existing with existing beings tortured in agony every second and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be conscious burdened with this existence of torturous suffering.

All I want is to erase this existence, I just want it to be like I never suffered in this terrible, harmful and torturous existence at all, to me existence will just always be the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty, suffering and torture in this terrible, painful existence.