Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[Cauliflour]

It could be to spread some weird kind of agenda lol.

Hmmm fair point. They are one of the most famous users on this forum after all. In fact, didn't that youtube video from about a year ago, didn't they bring up funeralcry too? I don't remember the specifics as when I watched that video I just laughed at it for a total of 5 minutes while skipping to random parts and then got bored. Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Hmmm fair point. They are one of the most famous users on this forum after all. In fact, didn't that youtube video from about a year ago, didn't they bring up funeralcry too? I don't remember the specifics as when I watched that video I just laughed at it for a total of 5 minutes while skipping to random parts and then got bored. Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

They said it could be the person that owns the website on an alt. Or some weirdo that wants to indirectly encourage suicide. Not that it's necessarily true at all but still a little uncomfortable to think about.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always just be waiting to die.
No matter what existing to me will always just be waiting to die and I always suffer so much as a result of waiting for death in this cruel, terrible existence that just causes all this torture and suffering, all I want is to be gone.

I just want this torturous existence to be all gone, forgotten and erased for me with no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer as a result of being conscious burdened with this torturous, dreadful existence, I just want peace from the pain and torture of existing and for me non-existence is just the only relief from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much torture in existing.
There truly is just so much torture and cruelty in existing and no matter what nothing would ever make me wish for this existence of torturous suffering that I just always saw as a mistake that just causes all this harm and suffering, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish for peace from the terrible pain and suffering of existing and no matter what I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured by this existence, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable in this existence that just harms existing beings, I'll always find it torturous to be conscious in this terrible, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ever hoping for the peace of eternal sleep.
No matter what the peace of an eternal sleep is just all I could hope and wish for, I just want to be free from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing, I just want to never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can solve and bring me the relief I search for from what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering and I'll just always find it torture to exist, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable in this existence I just always saw as a mistake, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much terrible cruelty in existing.
There really is so much terrible cruelty in existing which is why I'll only be glad to never suffer again, all I want is for all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence wit no more torture and no more suffering.

I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the cruelty and torture of existing, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering, to just never suffer again is all I see as positive, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for true peace from the terrible cruelty and torture of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for true permanent peace.
No matter what only true permanent peace is all that I could see as desirable, I just wish for no more torture and no more suffering, I just hope to be unconscious of the terrible mistake of existence that just harms and tortures existing beings.

To suffer in this existence is just always the most torturous burden to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence, there's just so much cruelty, suffering and torture in this dreadful existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I'll just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always be a mistake to me.
It will always be a mistake to me and I'll just always see the existence of life as the most terrible, devastating tragedy that just causes all this torture, harm and suffering, to me existence will just always be the most terrible mistake and it's one that only ever causes pain with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

To be conscious burdened with this existence of torturous suffering truly is an abomination and I suffer simply from existing, the torture and suffering of existing really is endless and I suffer simply from being burdened with this dreadful existence that just harms existing beings, I only hope for no more suffering.

 

[chelpus]

Who the hell is programming bots for fucking sanctioned suicide!? I can understand on twitter or facebook or ones of those sites cause it gives you attention, but why on sasu? Did they piss off someone irl before they died and this is part of some weird revenge plan cause that's all I can think of.

It could be that they have already passed away at around 2024, when they stopped responding to comments, and wanted to immortalize who they are and what they represent, leaving a trace of themselves in the internet that would last until this website goes down.

Though I doubt it's automated, there seems to be a point where they stop actively posting for about 8 hours, presumably sleeping, and I've seen some recent posts where they have made some typos, which makes me feel concerned if the account wasn't automated.

Out of respect, I didn't want to dig too deep into this, I've only looked around for about a few minutes before I started typing this comment.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
I truly will always prefer to not exist than suffer and in this existence so dreadful, cruel and torturous only non-existence can bring me peace, I just will always prefer to not exist and for me non-existence is just all that's positive and desirable.

Existing to me is torture and I find it so painful and horrible how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the extreme terrible agony of old age, I just want to be gone, for me ceasing to exist will always be the positive solution.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist means to suffer.
To exist truly does mean to suffer and I'd just never wish for the torture, cruelty and suffering of this painful, dreadful existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I'll always see this terrible, cruel existence as just being suffering, all I want is to be gone.

I just want all to be forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence with no more torture and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so terrible to exist, to me existence is the most torturous, terrible mistake, I wish for no more torture and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just always the most torturous burden.
I'll just always find it the most torturous burden to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the torture of this terrible cruel existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just hope for no more suffering.

I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this painful, cruel existence and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this terrible, dreadful existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering, to be burdened with this existence will just always be so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this existence of torturous suffering.
I truly would never wish for this existence of torturous, dreadful suffering and I'd just never wish for the torture of existing rather all I want is some peace, I just wish to be free from the torture of existing, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable.

I just want peace from this existence I just always saw as such a cruel mistake, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, to suffer in this torturous existence is just always an abomination to me, I just want to be free from the torture of this dreadful, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will just always be only suffering.
No matter what to me existing really will be only suffering and to exist truly does mean to suffer, I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace from and I wish that more than anything this torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty and harm was never imposed, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering and I'll just always see this tortuous existence as just only being suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

 

[-L-]

Does make me wonder how many users from the early days (2018-2020) are still on here though...

There are a few of us still here... Joined in January 2019, but lurked since the site started in 2018, when it started, I was unsure if the site was a honeypot of some sort so felt it out for awhile.
It's a ever revolving door of users, so the majority of the original user base is gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

So tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this terrible, torturous existence and always will be no matter what, all I want is some peace from the torture and cruelty of existing.

I just want to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the terrible torture and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll always see existing as just being only suffering, to suffer in this existence is just always the most cruel mistake to me and there's just so much cruelty and so much torture in existing, to be permanently unconscious is just all I see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of existing.
I truly do always suffer as a result of existing and I'd just never was for the suffering of this terrible, cruel existence, in this existence that just causes all this suffering all I wish for is some peace, I'll just always see it as the most torturous, dreadful burden to exist.

To me only non-existence could ever be positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from all torture and suffering, I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake, to exist really does mean to suffer, all I want is peace from the suffering and torture of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is just so much suffering, cruelty and torture in existing and no matter what all I could ever hope for is to be permanently at peace from it, I just hope for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence.

To be at peace from the torture of existence is just all I see as desirable, I just hope for peace from this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake that only ever causes all this terrible torture, I just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence really is always the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for from the terrible suffering and torture of existing and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, existence to me is just so torturous and terrible.

I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace from, I just hope for no more torture and no more suffering and I'll always see this painful, terrible existence as just being only suffering, to be at peace from the suffering of existing really is all I could ever see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than be tortured in this existence.
I truly will always prefer the peace of non-existence over the terrible suffering and torture of existing and I'll just always find it torture to suffer in this terrible, cruel existence, all I hope for is to be gone.

I just want to be free from this existence of dreadful suffering that just harms and tortures existing beings, for me existence will just always be the problem, non-existence is just all I see as desirable, only in non-existence will I be at peace, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be torture to me.
It truly will always be torture to me and I'd just never wish for the torture of this terrible cruel existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace from the torture of being burdened with this existence.

For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing, I always suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence and to exist truly does mean to suffer, there's just so much torture, pain and suffering in existing, I'll just always see it as the most terrible, torturous abomination to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer again.
It truly is enough to make me wish to never suffer again and I'd just never wish for the terrible suffering, cruelty and torture of existing.

All I want is to be permanently unconscious free from the pain of existing, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I just want to erase this existence I just always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake that just causes all this futile, dreadful suffering, I wish for no more suffering, the peace of non-existence is just all I could see as positive and is all I could hope for no matter what in this existence so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much torture and pain in existing.
There truly is so much torture and pain in existing and I'd just never wish for this terrible, dreadful existence of unnecessary suffering, for me non-existence is just the only peace from this existence I just always saw as such a cruel mistake.

I'll just always see existence as the problem, it's one only non-existence can bring me any peace and relief from, I just want to be free from the terrible torture, cruelty and suffering of existing, I just want to never suffer again and it feels like I've suffered so much, to be conscious burdened with this existence will always be so torturous and the torture of existing is endless.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only seeing the peace of non-existence as positive.
No matter what to me the peace of non-existence really is all that could be positive, for me ceasing to exist is the positive solution to find true permanent peace from the torture of this terrible, dreadful existence and I'll just always find it torture to exist

. All I want is true permanent peace from the suffering and torture of existing and all that existence ever does is just torture and harm existing beings, I just wish for no more suffering, I'll just always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just always an abomination to me.
It truly will always be an abomination to me that just causes all this torture and suffering and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this terrible, torturous existence rather all I want is peace, I just want to be free from the cruelty and suffering of this existence I just always saw as the most dreadful mistake.

To suffer in this existence is just always an abomination, existence is an abomination that just harms and tortures existing brings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just want to be free from the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence, I just hope for peace from this existence that never should had been imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence only ever caused harm.
It truly did only ever cause harm and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence, in this existence so cruel and harmful only non-existence can bring me any peace.

I'll always see it as the most dreadful, terrible tragedy how this harmful existence was imposed causing all this suffering and torture, all that existence ever does is harm and torture existing beings, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering, to me existence really is always the problem and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just being waiting to die.
No matter what to me existing will just always be waiting to die and I suffer simply from being burdened with this terrible, cruel existence that just causes all this suffering and torture, to suffer in this existence will always be an abomination to me and it's one that just causes all this dreadful suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To me existence will just always be the problem, I suffer simply from being burdened with this painful, deeply undesirable existence that just causes all this cruelty, pain and suffering, to suffer in this existence is just always the most cruel mistake to me, all I want is to be gone, I just hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the most cruel mistake.
It truly is always the most cruel mistake that just causes all this pain, harm and suffering and no matter what I'd just never wish for the mistake of existence and I'll just always see existence as the problem, all that existence ever does is cause all this torture.

I'll just always find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence, I'll just always see existence as the problem, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of non-existence where all is gone and forgotten and I'll just always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this existence I just always saw as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just futile suffering.
It truly is just futile suffering and I'd just never wish for the torture and pain of existing rather all I want is to be gone, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this futile existence.

All I want is to be gone, I could just never see any point to any of this, existence to me is just always a terrible mistake that just causes all this cruelty, torture and suffering, for me non-existence is just the only relief from the evil of existing, I just want peace from the futile suffering of this existence that never should had been imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It truly is always the problem to me and it's one only non-existence can solve for me, all I want is peace from the torture of existing and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, I just want to be gone.

In this existence so torturous and cruel only non-existence can solve everything for me and I'll just always see existence as the problem, non-existence for me is all that's positive, I just want some peace from this existence of dreadful futile suffering that just tortures existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.