Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Existence is just always so cruel.
It really is so cruel and there's just so much cruelty in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, I suffer so much as a result of this existence and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to never suffer ever again.

For me existence is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can solve for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally I'm no longer burdened with this dreadful, futile existence and I just suffer so much from being burdened with this existence, it's all so terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me, I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief.

 

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To never suffer again is all I could wish for.
It truly is all I could wish for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as the most dreadful mistake.

It's all just so cruel and painful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain, suffering and cruelty where this dreadful existence is finally all gone and forgotten and for me non-existence is just the only relief from the pain and suffering of existing, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it destined to decay and die anyway. It really is just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen where I just hope and wait to be gone and I always suffer from waiting to die in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as waiting to die.
It truly is just waiting to die to me, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I suffer simply from existing, to me existing is just so futile, cruel and undesirable and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured until non-existence takes away all anyway and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

I'd never wish for the torturous and futile burden of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace andI always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully die in an guaranteed way even know existing really is just waiting to die and all will be forgotten in non-existence anyway. For me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence so dreadful and torturous I always saw as a mistake causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this torturous, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me any peace.
It truly is the only peace for me and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I see as desirable in this torturous, futile existence where I'm just waiting and hoping to be gone.

I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all so cruel and dreadful and I wish I never suffered, I just never should had suffered at all but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, futile existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, all I want is to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
Existing will always just be only suffering to me and there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had suffered and I find it so tragic how this existence was imposed causing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and it's all so dreadful, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just wish for eternal sleep, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence, it's all so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence where I just wait and hope to be gone. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so painful to me and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in this dreadful, futile existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, for me existence really is always the problem and it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much as a result of this existence.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of this existence and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is to never wake again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

I'll just always and only see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to peacefully cease existing, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where all is finally forgotten and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist again and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for and there's just so much pain and so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to be at peace. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this dreadful torturous existence just continues, it's all so terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, cruel existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this cruel, dreadful existence and I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for dreamless, eternal sleep where all is gone and forgotten.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief in this existence that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it.

I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful and I'm always so tired of it all, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake again to finally escape from this torturous, futile existence and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as such a terrible unnecessary burden to exist, I wish to just never suffer again and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much pain in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only and always wish to be gone, I just wish for some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wanting all to be forgotten for me.
No matter what all I could hope is for all to be forgotten for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem, I always wish to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and torturous to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone.

I just wish for an permanent sleep where this dreadful, torturous existence is all forgotten, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I just want all to be gone and forgotten, I'd never wish for this torturous, harmful existence rather all I want is some peace and only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this dreadful, cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist.
I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this cruel existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again.

I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist, only non-existence can take away and solve what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again. I just want all to be forgotten for me, only non-existence can bring me any relief and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and torturous to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I just want to not exist instead, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I'd just never wish for any of this and I wish I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel existence more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for non-existence.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and there's just so much suffering in existing, all I want is to never wake, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is gone and there is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the burden of existence, it's just all so terrible to me and I wish I never had to suffer more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for but of course I continue to suffer in this existence so futile and dreadful I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as an abomination.
No matter what I really will always see existence as an abomination and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel, dreadful and painful and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for this harmful, dreadful abomination rather I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me.

I suffer simply from existing and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, dreadful existence rather all I want is to never wake, only non-existence can bring me any relief from the abomination of existence, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer and I suffer so much as a result of this abomination, it's all so dreadful, cruel and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this and I just never should had suffered at all in this existence I always saw as a mistake, existence will always be the problem to me no matter what and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in this dreadful existence.
There truly is so much suffering in this dreadful existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I just always saw as such a cruel mistake but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence finally all forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I just wish for this dreadful existence I never would had chosen to finally be all gone and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief from suffering I search for. I really will just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this dreadful torturous existence where I suffer so unnecessarily destined to decay and die anyway, I'd just never wish for any of this and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's just all so painful to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, painful existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always find it so painful to exist, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in this torturous existence, all I want is to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered.

I wish for no more harm and no more suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again with this harmful, dreadful and torturous existence finally all forgotten and it just feels like I've suffered for so long, it's all so terrible to me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could take away for me. I just want to never wake ever again and finally be free from this dreadful, harmful existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this harmful, painful existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, I wish I never suffered more than anything but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so cruel and terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to suffer in this dreadful existence.
No matter what I'd just never want to suffer in this dreadful existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of non-existence but of course all the suffering just continues and I wish I never existed more than anything.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of this deeply undesirable existence, it's all just so dreadful, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me. I wish for no more suffering and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, existence to me really is an abomination that just causes harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, it's all just so cruel and painful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just wish for non-existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me, to exist is just always something so terrible to me and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I just never should had suffered in this dreadful existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just all so futile to me and I wish I never suffered in this deeply undesirable, futile existence more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful to me. I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's all just so futile, cruel and undesirable and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I just want to never suffer again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in an eternal dreamless sleep and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this torturous, futile existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so torturous to exist and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this painful, dreadful existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish to not exist.

I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain, cruelty and suffering where this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally all gone, I'll just always find it the most terrible, dreadful burden to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything this existence was never imposed. I just never should had suffered and I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in this existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'll just always find it so torturous to exist, for me only non-existence is positive, I just want to never wake ever again with no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels like I've suffered for so long in this dreadful, painful existence.
It really does feel like I've suffered for so long in this dreadful, painful existence I always saw as a mistake and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

As long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I just never would had chosen, as long as I exist I really will just wish for no more suffering.

I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering of this dreadful existence just continues and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from, all I hope for is to sleep permanently, I just want to never wake and for me non-existence is just the only relief. I just want peace from all the suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's all so cruel and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, all I want is relief from the suffering, I just want all to be forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase my existence.
I truly do always wish to erase my existence, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I want it to be like I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence at all, I just want some peace.

I just want to disappear from this existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so terrible and futile and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish for the pain, cruelty and suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for bit of course I want it to be like I never suffered. I always see it as the most terrible, cruel tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, all I want is to erase this dreadful existence so it's like I never suffered and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I just wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so unnecessary to me.
It really is so unnecessary to me, all that existence does is cause harm and suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, futile existence I always saw as a mistake but of course all the suffering just continues and I wish this existence was never imposed. I find it the most terrible dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering as a result and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I could never see a point to any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, it's just all so futile and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this unnecessary existence.

 

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Only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what non-existence is just all I could hope and wish for in this torturous, futile existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything.

I'd never wish to suffer in this dreadful existence rather all I want is to never wake ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently to finally escape from the suffering of existing and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I wish I could just choose to never wake again, for me only non-existence is positive and desirable, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this futile, torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake, I wish I could just choose to never wake, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence I never would had wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so terrible to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as a mistake more than anything.

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I just wish I never suffered more than anything but of course I'm still burdened with this terrible, dreadful existence I never would had wished for and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and I always wish that more than anything I never suffered at all.

I'll just always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this painful, torturous existence I never would had chosen that only ever brought so much pain.