Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It really is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me any peace from this deeply undesirable torturous existence where I hope and wait to not exist and I'll always see existing as waiting to die, it's all so cruel and painful and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to never wake, I just want all to be gone, I just want all to be forgotten for me with no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me which is why all I could see as positive is non-existence. I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence, all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, for me existence is always the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for eternal sleep, all I want is to never wake again, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wanting to not exist.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is to not exist, in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, only non-existence can bring me any peace.

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this deeply undesirable existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer only non-existence is all I hope for, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible to me and I always wish I never had to suffer. This existence of unnecessary futile suffering just never should had been imposed and I always suffer so much as a result of the imposition of existence, it's all so cruel and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake, I just wish for an eternal sleep where finally I cannot suffer in any way and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always just an unnecessary harm to me.
It really is always an unnecessary harm to me and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous and deeply undesirable existence more than anything, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, all I wish for is an eternal sleep where this harmful existence is finally all forgotten and there's just so much suffering in existing.

I suffer simply from existing and it's all so dreadful to me, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just hope for permanent peace from this cruel, torturous and harmful existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I never would had chosen and I'll just always see it as an abomination to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, it's all so terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake. I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and I always wish I never existed, I just never should had suffered and I'll always see it as the most terrible, cruel tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and painful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and is just all I'll hope for as long as I'm burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existence really is the most torturous, dreadful burden.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where this existence I always saw as an abomination is finally all gone and forgotten, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for some peace, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to never exist again. I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it truly is all so cruel to me which is why the peace of non-existence is just all I hope for, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, undesirable existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, all I want is some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is just always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I really will just always see it as so dreadful to exist and I wish I never suffered in this torturous and cruel existence more than anything, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for but of course I continue to be burdened with this dreadful existence I always saw as such a cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me.

I'd just never wish for this dreadful, torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist, I only wish for peace, I just want to never exist again but of course I'm still trapped in this dreadful existence suffering so unnecessarily just waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's all so cruel and painful and I suffer simply from being burdened with this cruel existence, I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, there is just so much suffering in this cruel, futile existence, I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is eternal sleep, I just want some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist and in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is just the only peace for me, it's all I hope for and see as desirable.

All I want is to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is some peace, for me only non-existence is all that's positive. I just wish for permanent relief from this dreadful, painful and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I just find it so dreadful to exist and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence, it's all so cruel to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
No matter what I'll just always see existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I just never should had suffered but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so dreadful to me and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist again, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence really is always preferable and is all I'll hope for.

I just wish to never exist again, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering of this painful, futile existence just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist and only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, I'll only see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wanting to not exist.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to not exist, I just wish for an eternal sleep where this torturous, deeply undesirable existence is finally all gone and as long as I exist I'll just hope and wish to never suffer ever again.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence just waiting for death and I'll just always see existing as waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace from as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, if I don't exist I cannot suffer and to be permanently free from the cruelty and suffering of existing is just all I hope for.

For me non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally nothing in this cruel, torturous existence can concern me and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered in this existence I always saw as a mistake. I just suffer so much from being burdened with this existence and I'd just never wish for the burden of existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where nothing in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence can concern me and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and painful to me and I'll only wish to be gone no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so painful to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so painful to exist and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for but of course all the cruelty and suffering just continues.

I'll always see existing as only suffering and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for this painful, futile existence rather all I want is to never exist again. I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally nothing can concern me and I'm just no longer burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is just all I'll hope for in this cruel, deeply undesirable existence. All I want is to never exist again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for this futile, torturous existence of suffering all for the sake of it where I just hope and wait to be gone destined to decay and die anyway, it truly is all just so painful and torturous to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping to cease existing.
No matter what all I could hope for is to cease existing, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake is finally all forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing.

All I want is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and I always suffer from being conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, it's all so dreadful and painful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief from the cruelty and torture of existing I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so futile and torturous where I just hope and wait for death anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to cease existing, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To cease existing is all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable and is just all I wish for in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me. I just wish I never suffered more than anything and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing.

I'd just never wish for any of this and I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, the peace of non-existence is just all I could hope and wish for, I only see non-existence as desirable where all is gone and forgotten, I'd just never wish for this existence that causes all this pain, suffering and problems and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I'd just never wish for this torturous, cruel, deeply undesirable and painful existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again, it feels like I've suffered for so long in this deeply undesirable existence, it's all just so dreadful.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I really am always so tired of it all and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to never wake but of course all the pain and suffering just continues, it's all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for eternal sleep, I just want all to be forgotten, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from the suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as such a dreadful, torturous burden to exist, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake. I just want all to be gone for me, I'll always see existence as a mistake that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I wish for is eternal sleep and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from this cruel, torturous existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer that I'm always so tired of, I just hope and wish to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only suffering.
No matter what I'll just always see existing as just being only suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious burdened with this futile and torturous existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents and it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this, existing to me will always be only suffering and it just feels like I suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake.

I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered, as long as I exist I'll just hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where this deeply undesirable existence is finally all forgotten and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is to never wake, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so much and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is peace and I'll just only be at peace once I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this deeply undesirable, futile existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, I just wish I never had to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've existed for so long.
It truly does feel like I've existed for so long and I just wish I never existed more than anything, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist and only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never exist again, for me non-existence really is the only peace and is just all I could wish for in this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me as if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where all is forgotten and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer again. I wish for no more suffering and no more cruelty and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never wake, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish to suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous existence rather I just want all to be gone for me, I only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and all is forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I really am always just so tired of it all and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence more than anything, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily but of course all the pain, cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it's all so dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where all is finally forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is the only peace and relief and is just all I see as desirable in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to be gone and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is eternal sleep, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing. It's all so dreadful and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and nothing in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence of unnecessary futile suffering can concern me and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist, I really am just so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me peace and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from the pain and suffering of existing, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer as a result of this dreadful existence, as long as I exist I'll just have so much dread for what lies ahead, I'll always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from as if I'm gone I cannot suffer.

There is no suffering in non-existence where all is finally forgotten, non-existence is just all I look forward to and is all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel destined to decay and die anyway, it's all so dreadful to me and I just wish I never had to suffer in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence more than anything and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I just hope for permanent peace where finally all is gone,

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for death.
No matter what I could only hope and wish for death, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this deeply undesirable, torturous existence is all gone and forgotten and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain and suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where all is gone and I cannot suffer and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's all just so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to sleep permanently. I just want to never exist again but of course all the pain, suffering and torture of existing just continues, it's all so terrible and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and I'd just always prefer to not exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is to never wake, for me non-existence really is the only relief in this existence where I'm just waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so terrible to me.
To exist really is always so terrible to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty only non-existence can bring me peace and is just all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering just continues, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible and cruel to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, it really is just all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll just only be at peace from the suffering in non-existence where all is finally forgotten. I wish I could just choose to never wake again, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where nothing can concern me and finally I can rest, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I suffer so much all for the sake of it and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to sleep permanently.
No matter what all I could hope for is to sleep permanently, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep where I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so cruel and dreadful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel deeply undesirable existence just continues and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I just wish for this existence I always saw as a mistake to be all gone for me. I'd just never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and finally I can be at peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief, it's just all I see as desirable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, I just wish for an permanent sleep free from all suffering and I'll just always find it so painful to exist, it's pain only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel and terrible, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always the problem to me.
It really is always the problem to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake that I just never would had wished for and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, I'll always see existing as only suffering.

I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence, it's all just so dreadful to me and I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist, it's a burden that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from and as long as I exist I'll just hope to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful and I'll just always see it as such a dreadful burden to exist, it's a burden only non-existence can bring me any relief from and it just feels like I've suffered so much, it's all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so cruel to me and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never existed more than anything, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this unnecessary suffering as a result.