Venting Ftw fml rant vent Idk

[kitkatt]

I hate it here and by here I guess I mean I hate being stuck with myself. Can you have a quarter to mid life crisis if your whole life's been a crisis? I can't afford my doctor anymore I can't really afford my medication either. Can barely afford to pay the bills to keep me from being homeless. If it weren't for my roommate being an angel I would be homeless. Which I guess it'd be a lot easier to get over the survival instincts if I was and didn't have people who care about me to disappoint. Which I know won't matter to me if I commit but fuck will things ever actually change and get better enough to live and not just scrounge to barely get by. Wish I'd just drop dead from some crazy anomaly so I didn't have to deal with this shit forever. Hopefully I'll feel better after getting this shit outta my head. Probably won't help much but fuck I'll take whatever I can get

 

[SoulCage]

I feel your pain. It's incomprehensible that in 4000 years of civilization, so many humans still struggle with survival. That suffering and exploitation is still a thing. Meanwhile many homes are empty and food is going directly to a dump site.
If the rules of society make us suffer, why is it still impossible to die by own terms using methods that don't cause great discomfort? That we are forced to suffer in life and in the process of death.

I am also so tired of this shit.