Venting Friend's suicide wasn't real + my "viral" post

[Shushua]

TW: SH AND SUICIDE
i mean i know we are on here but i'd rather put it just in case, you know.

I don't even know how to explain how I feel.

I was told my online friend passed in January. He had a funeral and I couldn't attend it but people irl dead, even one of our mutal friends did.

But the other day he was back online. His family faked his death. I dont know how to feel, I don't know how to explain this situation to anyone, I don't even know how to bring this up to my therapist.

It kinda makes me feel like I've lied to everyone in my life now tho. Part of what made me so depressed was my friend dying but now he's just alive? What am I supposed to do now. And I know he's alive, but he hasn't been talking to me, its like he's still gone. Idk what do.

Also, I post photos of me cutting myself on a platform and onr post got some traction. I've kinda wanted attention from my cutting ig, but now that I got it I don't like it. It feels weird, people saving pics of my cuts and idk why cause I've never felt this way before. I don't wanna burden anyone with this info tho, I mean who would I even talk to and how would I explain this without getting institutionalized. Why couldn't the post just stayed with a few views. It's stressing me out even tho it shouldn't.

 

[needthebus]

If you cut yourself and post it on social media, you are asking for attention and hospitalization.

As for your friend faking their death, that's some crazy shit. Would they have a reason to do it? Was it just their family doing it? And why would they do it? I believe you, but just don't understand it.