Found my method and date

[renold]

I've decided I'll be out by july 15th its my birthday and I figure i should only make one day "about me" for my family + bf i hope they'll just forget tho, but i know they won't they love me and and in return, I'll kill myself. I feel guilty but definitely not enough to stay. I just cant been here for 21 years a whole longer than I thought Id make it (a whole lot longer than i shouldve) and I just cant imagine doing this 3x over at the minimum. I feel so much releif knowing i get to give up soonish. Gonna go out by tying a noose to some tree in the middle of nowhere ill call 911 and tell them where to find the body and then I'll shoot myself. I figure if the shot doesn't kill me when i collapse the noose will finish it off any suggesions on how to make the plan more "bullet proof" lol

 

[tellingthetruth]

Nothing to add to your plan but just to say that going out on your birthday so it's just one day for others to mourn you is really smart. I'm not deadset on CTB but if I do I will make sure to do the same. I want to minimise the damage done any way I can. So thank you for this idea and I hope it all works out painlessly for you.

 

[renold]

Nothing to add to your plan but just to say that going out on your birthday so it's just one day for others to mourn you is really smart. I'm not deadset on CTB but if I do I will make sure to do the same. I want to minimise the damage done any way I can. So thank you for this idea and I hope it all works out painlessly for you.

thank you and i'll be honest stole the birthday ctb idea off someone off here lol, but it do really just make sense I'm already doing the most selfish act might as well spare them a tinge of grief

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.

 

[tellingthetruth]

thank you and i'll be honest stole the birthday ctb idea off someone off here lol, but it do really just make sense I'm already doing the most selfish act might as well spare them a tinge of grief

Is there anything else you're doing to make things easier for loved ones? I also want to minimise the damage, or at least a little bit of the stress, because all this is small mercy in the face of losing someone. But I want to make sure all my affairs are in order like cancelled cards, contracts, etc. Social media accounts and emails taken care of. I feel like this kind of thing could do with a megathread.

 

[renold]

Is there anything else you're doing to make things easier for loved ones? I also want to minimise the damage, or at least a little bit of the stress, because all this is small mercy in the face of losing someone. But I want to make sure all my affairs are in order like cancelled cards, contracts, etc. Social media accounts and emails taken care of. I feel like this kind of thing could do with a megathread.

For me, I'm leaving a letter with funeral arrangements and money I'll have it all set so they dont have to worry about anything with that. I'm going to buy my bf a plane ticket cause i know itd kill him to not be at my funeral. Next its affairs need to settle my estate. I also am leaving indivual letters and a box of my writings thru the years i have diaries from the age of 14. I feel they wont know why and for me the questions are just as bad as the grief so i'll let them in on my mental state it's clear when u read them im past my experation date so i think it might help. In the letters i will warn them about the box of writing tho and warn them the writings get darker/deeper and suggest they dont read them but they will be provided for them. looking for other things to do too tho I love my people and I want them to be ok just cant do this anymore