Forced relapse

[cashisCBT]

I started self harming when i was 11 and its only got worse since then, i want to get clean for once and i have been wanting to for a while. I dont want to cut but every night i force myself to because if i dont then im "getting better" and thats the worst thing in the world to me but i dont understand why i hate the idea of recovery so much if i want to recover.

 

[Harrow]

Because it has been a part of your life for so long. Self-harm is what you know, and life in recovery is the unknown. Not to mention you're giving up something that has been a core coping mechanism for you for such a long time. Maybe you can find something to replace that part of your routine at night?

It's a really hard thing to do, so don't be too hard on yourself if you slip up because it will only make you feel worse. Don't give up though, I believe in you. Wishing you the best.