First post, new member

[CrazyHorse]

Hi, thanks for having me. I have been wanting to ctb for 20+ years but only recently the walls are closing in fast and I finally find the right search terms on the internet to finally find you all. The anhedonia is so extreme...I don't remember the last time I felt joy, and now it gets worse here every day. Srsly wtf

I am actually excited about something -- getting to interact with some of you whose posts I have been reading. I completely get how you feel but you are actually some very sweet people.

I am interested in SN, but because I can't source anything :/ charcoal seems like it is The Way. I could use help with either method -- I respectfully ask, please, PLEASE, if you are pessimistic or a naysayer about charcoal please don't reply to me about it, the last thing I need is more discouragement. Anyway, I was alive for the beginning of the internet and now 30 years later or something it finally seems like it may be useful, thanks again for having me.

 

[brood]

I have seen burning charcoal to produce carbon monoxide used to great effect, done quickly, quietly and effectively. He looked so at peace and almost smiling.
It was a method I considered but I am going to hang, less fuss and preparation, the equipment is in place, just waiting for the day.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I have seen burning charcoal to produce carbon monoxide used to great effect, done quickly, quietly and effectively. He looked so at peace and almost smiling.
It was a method I considered but I am going to hang, less fuss and preparation, the equipment is in place, just waiting for the day.

Where did you see this?

 

[brood]

My boyfriend took his own life this way.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

My boyfriend took his own life this way.

I'm sorry. I can't imagine.

 

[ihopethisispainless]

I have seen burning charcoal to produce carbon monoxide used to great effect, done quickly, quietly and effectively. He looked so at peace and almost smiling.
It was a method I considered but I am going to hang, less fuss and preparation, the equipment is in place, just waiting for the day.

Hey I sent a pm you may find helpful

 

[brood]

Sorry, unable to find PMs
Sorry, unable to find PM

I'm sorry. I can't imagine.

No sweat, you weren't to know, it's some 10 years ago.

 

[ihopethisispainless]

Sorry, unable to find PMs
Sorry, unable to find PM

No sweat, you weren't to know, it's some 10 years ago.

When u click those 3 lines that give u the drop down menu, click on chat then private messages

When u click those 3 lines that give u the drop down menu, click on chat then private messages

Then u click on my username to open the chat

 

[Glowarm]

Hi, thanks for having me. I have been wanting to ctb for 20+ years but only recently the walls are closing in fast and I finally find the right search terms on the internet to finally find you all. The anhedonia is so extreme...I don't remember the last time I felt joy, and now it gets worse here every day. Srsly wtf

I am actually excited about something -- getting to interact with some of you whose posts I have been reading. I completely get how you feel but you are actually some very sweet people.

I am interested in SN, but because I can't source anything :/ charcoal seems like it is The Way. I could use help with either method -- I respectfully ask, please, PLEASE, if you are pessimistic or a naysayer about charcoal please don't reply to me about it, the last thing I need is more discouragement. Anyway, I was alive for the beginning of the internet and now 30 years later or something it finally seems like it may be useful, thanks again for having me.

Hi and welcome to SS. I hope you find here what you're looking for.

 

[Graytaichi]

When u burn charcoal it produces alot of fumes at first. Thats no carbon monoxide. When the smoke has slimer down thats what u want. It takes 3hrs or more for tyat to happen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. I know that it can be awful when things just get worse. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever you decide to do, I wish you the best.