Finding the courage to do it

[Bruces]

Even though I dislike life immensely I still have big reservations about doing it,it seems I have an inner survival instinct (I guess we all do!) my life seems illogical and unfeasible yet still I doubt! How can I be both suicidal and scared of death?

 

[X-Kid]

My guess is that you aren't there yet. Having suicidal thoughts vs actually going through with killing yourself are different in my book. I'm still afraid of death, that's why I want a peaceful way out. SN is one of them.

 

[Keepingtabs]

When you're ready you don't really care, you might need to sort everything out before trying to ctb

 

[Bruces]

I wish I knew what all these abbreviations meant lol

 

[miguel6565]

i guess you still have hope/dont are ready to ctb (catch the bus),take your time and think about it

-love

 

[niloc]

I've been there - to the point of almost doing it. In my instances, it's simply been my hands have stopped and I couldn't move them. All I would have had to do is raise the gun to my head and pull and it would be over.. less than a second to do that act.. 3 times now I've stopped.

After each time, it was a very long walk home.

 

[Cancún]

[QUOTE = "niloc, publicación: 714358, miembro: 17851"]
He estado allí, hasta el punto de casi hacerlo. En mis casos, simplemente se han detenido mis manos y no podía moverlas. Todo lo que habría tenido que hacer es levantar el arma hacia mi cabeza y tirar y todo habría terminado ... menos de un segundo para hacer ese acto ... 3 veces me he detenido.

Después de cada vez, fue un largo camino a casa.
[/CITAR]
luck you have a gun

 

[Living sucks]

I wish I knew what all these abbreviations meant lol

Here is the correct link sorry

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/acronyms-on-here-for-new-users.6031/

 

[Bruces]

I just want to be able to find courage to do it!

 

[Living sucks]

I just want to be able to find courage to do it!

I'm dying from physical illness and in horrible pain everyday.. beyond just body pain, i can't eat anything accept mushy cooked vegetables and applesauce, I'm bedridden, massive burning from cyanosis and nerve disease.. and so much more.. anyway what I'm trying to say is, I can't even find the courage to stop my suffering. It's the hardest thing ever bcuz we're hardwired to survive!
it's a bitch

 

[Painless_end]

Even though I dislike life immensely I still have big reservations about doing it,it seems I have an inner survival instinct (I guess we all do!) my life seems illogical and unfeasible yet still I doubt! How can I be both suicidal and scared of death?

My condition is similar. That's why we are stuck here.

I call it limbo.