Help Finding courage

[evel¡n]

I've thought about killing myself for so long and I want to finally go through with it. However I don't really have the courage it takes. I guess the only reason why I'm scared is God not forgiving me and ending up burning in hell for eternity. I know it might sound as a cliche, but since I live in a very religious orthodox country and family especially, it's hard not to think about it. So how can I actually get myself to do it? Also, what would be the best and most accesible methods to do it?

 

[reyonrays]

Hey,

It's perfectly normal to feel that way, every religion has their own belief of what might happen after death.
One thing that everyone will experience is being born and death.

I guess you just have to embrace it and face it, knowing that eventually one way or the other you will die one day, for some of us it might be sooner than later.

I'm also scared of doing it, but knowing that i will be free of all the pain and psychical suffering, brings me some comfort.

tbh, ctb is not easy, whichever method you choose your SI will kick in and struggle to do it, some methods have low SI.

for your last question, sn is quite an accessible method, and a alot of threads about too. I suggest you do some research about.

Suicide Resource Compilation
PPH Essentials 2022
Stan's guide to sn

I wish you the best, and whichever method you decide to choose, don't make the choice too rashly. Good luck!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wishing to be gone, I've also thought about it for such a long time, in fact wanting to die really is all I personally know. But anyway I wish you the best.