Finally trying to get better

[whatintheworld365]

Back in July, I finally bit the bullet and bought 2 bottles of N from D. It came without a hitch, and has since sat in my pantry, waiting for the right time. I finally realize I do not need to do this, and no longer feel like it's a security blanket that I once needed. I'm going to keep trying to get healthy instead, and once and for all get rid of it completely.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Why not keep it, just in case? Not trying to persuade you to CTB but even if I wasnt suicidal i would still want to have it

 

[whatintheworld365]

Because as long as I have it, I'm not letting go of that ideology. Wish I could send it back for a refund, honestly lol it came with meto and everything.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Because as long as I have it, I'm not letting go of that ideology. Wish I could send it back for a refund, honestly lol it came with meto and everything.

Maybe you could send it to another suicidal user on here? Or would that be too homicidal?

 

[whatintheworld365]

Maybe you could send it to another suicidal user on here? Or would that be too homicidal?

I have no problem doing that if they want to pay what I paid for it! I remember feeling desperate before I had it as no other methods I had tried or toyed with worked.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best. I hope things work out for you in terms of getting better. It is understandable wanting to get rid of the ctb materials when you do not plan on exiting this world.

 

[WaterHemlock]

I'm so glad you're feeling better and not so desperate.
I'm happy for you and you have my best wishes.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

Maybe you could send it to another suicidal user on here? Or would that be too homicidal?

I have no problem doing that if they want to pay what I paid for it! I remember feeling desperate before I had it as no other methods I had tried or toyed with worked.

You do know that this could potentially get you in trouble with LE. Not to mention its against forum rules.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Back in July, I finally bit the bullet and bought 2 bottles of N from D. It came without a hitch, and has since sat in my pantry, waiting for the right time. I finally realize I do not need to do this, and no longer feel like it's a security blanket that I once needed. I'm going to keep trying to get healthy instead, and once and for all get rid of it completely.

I don't know you at all, but I'm always happy to read that people here are willing to try to get better. It's wonderful news!! Thank you for doing this!! I hope you'll be happy!!
I wonder why you didn't post it in Recovery section though…..
Anyways, you're already doing great!!!