final prayers

[58Alice85]

I pray that my death does not cause God negative feelings or disturbance.
I do not care if the whole world hates Jesus Christ i will still love him
If i go to hell, Christ's judgement is still perfect
i have commited sodomy and suicide, wished to be anally raped by Christ, committed theophilia in my head
i simply ask that my life or death gave some kind of pleasure to God
Amen

 

[hell toupee]

Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?

-Epicurus

 

[Traveller12724]

I am not judging at all, I am just curious, but what do you exactly mean by commiting sodomy ? And where did the fantasy of being anally raped by christ come from exactly ?

 

[58Alice85]

I am not judging at all, I am just curious, but what do you exactly mean by commiting sodomy ? And where did the fantasy of being anally raped by christ come from exactly ?

I dress up as a girl and take it from behind, this is called sodomy in my religion

 

[EmptyBottle]

I doubt Jesus would perform adult acts on someone though. Maybe some others will (if both consent) in the afterlife?

I also doubt one goes to hell after destroying themselves, but I know it isn't as easy as skipping life. Maybe there is some answering to do, maybe some less preferred duties for the afterlife, etc... tho with people CTBing because of severe abuse, it is the abusers who will more likely be in hell.


PS: Being able but not willing to stop evil might not make God malevolent. Maybe he studies the evil using Earth as a testing ground so he knows exactly what to watch for and prevent, in the afterlife? Maybe removing evil requires thought monitoring and anti-free-will stuff that is harsh in itself, and God prefers his creation having free will instead of feeling stuck?

 

[58Alice85]

Had some mild hallucinations today
heard a voice say 'you want to suck off homeless people'
when i came home for a split second saw some creature lying on my bed
another voice said 'life is a video game'
constant olfactory hallucinations of molten plastic or maybe this is just all the trash outside melting from the heat