Venting Fighting a losing battle

[Abaigh]

For about 3 or 4 years I've been suicidal I've been diagnosed with depression anxiety and ptsd. I truly am trying to get better but nothing has worked and even if I wanted to go hospital just to keep me safe from myself I can't because of the corona virus. I'm on medication and am in therapy but idk what to do because I feel the same as when I started. I hate everything. I hate myself I want to die but am too much of a coward to do anything I wish I could just be normal. my pedophile manipulative father is the only thing I can think about I hate him so much and never realised any of the manipulation until after I stopped talking to him.
sorry if it is all random I tend to ramble.

 

[Eren]

I'm sorry you feel that way, if you need to talk you can write to me.

 

[faust]

I am so sorry for all the struggles you meet on your way...
It is a hard time and despite all the possible scenarios, we have to wait.
Yes, patience maybe is not what we mastered in, but now it would be better...
Sending you hugs

 

[Abaigh]

I am so sorry for all the struggles you meet on your way...
It is a hard time and despite all the possible scenarios, we have to wait.
Yes, patience maybe is not what we mastered in, but now it would be better...
Sending you hugs

Thank you