i really thought rhis time will be different. that they'll stick around. that they like me. how wrong i was.
my whole life ive been deprived of interactions with humans. i just wanted friends. people who care if i kive or die. why does everyone throw me away like some sort of garbage? im so tired. ive never been romantically pursued or even had a close friend all my 21 years. maybe that's nkt much but im just so, so tired of the loneliness. i met so many people, tried so many things. i dont want to anymore.
it feels pathetic to get so emotionally attached and cling onto people i havent even met in person, or that i haven't even known for that long.
ive never clicked with someone so fast ever before. the perfect tune of my and their weirdness. how is it easier to freaking sleep call with a stranger than simply telling them know why you ignore their existence and hang out with other peopke after everything was just fine — i dont understand. it was a-okay just now. what the fuck happened? you were surprised how similar we are yourself, you said you are being your authentic self and implied its the first or one of the few times you are accepted, let alone it's someone who is just like you.
i feel like it really is the final stab to my heart. im so tired of talking to myself. im so sick and tired. i have no other reasons to wake up in the morning but the people who made me feel like its all worth it. nobody's here anymore. maybe nobody was here in the first place.
my whole life ive been deprived of interactions with humans. i just wanted friends. people who care if i kive or die. why does everyone throw me away like some sort of garbage? im so tired. ive never been romantically pursued or even had a close friend all my 21 years. maybe that's nkt much but im just so, so tired of the loneliness. i met so many people, tried so many things. i dont want to anymore.
it feels pathetic to get so emotionally attached and cling onto people i havent even met in person, or that i haven't even known for that long.
ive never clicked with someone so fast ever before. the perfect tune of my and their weirdness. how is it easier to freaking sleep call with a stranger than simply telling them know why you ignore their existence and hang out with other peopke after everything was just fine — i dont understand. it was a-okay just now. what the fuck happened? you were surprised how similar we are yourself, you said you are being your authentic self and implied its the first or one of the few times you are accepted, let alone it's someone who is just like you.
i feel like it really is the final stab to my heart. im so tired of talking to myself. im so sick and tired. i have no other reasons to wake up in the morning but the people who made me feel like its all worth it. nobody's here anymore. maybe nobody was here in the first place.
