Feeling overwhelmed with life expectations

[lili]

Hey everyone,

This post will be stupid and long. I feel like I don't deserve to start a thread but I feel like I'll give it a go.

Who else is having to cope with wanting to CBT, but can't do it right now and still has to somehow deal with responsibilities of life?

I have to do work and I can't handle it anymore. My SN seems to take forever to arrive won't be till mid April and I ordered I think beginning of March. I've already lost hope.

Yesterday I lost one job I had. And in the evening I got an angry email from another job I had.I pretty much have no money and my ex boyfriend has had to pay my rent.

I don't want to tell people how I'm feeling, because I know where that leads. And I don't want anymore hospitalizations or anything. But it's my third week at my house. And my SN isn't here.

I've been laying in my bed with a lot of pain lately, what do I do? I also am in graduate school, and I already took two weeks off. People's demands and expectations are so intense. I just want everything to end. Then living with my ex boyfriend on top of it all is unbearable.

I don't want to leave my house because people gossip so much. My life is like a game for them that brings them some sort of thrill to their boring lives. I'm done being the entertainer.


My life feels like a sideshow act that would come off like a comedy that has a randomly dark twist in the end that feels completely misplaced and awkward.

So who else is in a state of limbo like I am inherently ?

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I was once in that limbo but I have since left work and at the moment I find myself doing nothing, I simply spend my days in bed watching TV.

I have money to support myself for another month and I am looking for a new job but I don't even have the strength to go to the interviews.

Exhausted of feeling this way.

I'm sorry for your suffering :/

 

[looking4escape]

i can somewhat relate
even just my everyday day to day duties are getting to me beyond belief starting with getting out of bed in the morning
my husband expects a lot of me and i try to stay one step ahead of him to avoid a hurtful comment but i am growing soo tired of catering to him while also keeping up with my own stuff and my children's - i mean i'd love catering to him but only wish some would be returned to me but it never is...just expects more and more
we are a blended family and his kids seem to do no wrong and don't have to help out like mine do at home which brings on a whole bunch of mom guilt - i should be protecting them and standing up for them - i don't know how i ended up in a situation i swore i never would put myself in