feeling like a failure

[GASLIGHTER7000]

im 18 and i was meant to start university last semester for a bachelors of commerce. i started it, but ended up dropping it in a week and deciding to take a semester off. it was really disappointing for my parents, because they had high expectations for me. they viewed the career path i planned to go down (i wanted to become an accountant) as prestigious and were very happy for me. but they understood i was depressed and suicidal so they were very lenient. i came back to university this semester doing open studies. and had applied to do a bachelors of education... i wanted to become a teacher..but i didn't get in. i managed to get into a smaller university in my area doing a bachelors of early childhood education, but i had a chance to get into education if i could keep my grades up in open studies. but i haven't been doing as good as i wished. i keep getting poor grades, and will probably be unable to get into education this year. i'm really disappointed in myself, i know i still have a future in education if i work hard enough but i lack so much discipline. i'm really lazy, i have finals next week and i still havent started studying. i feel like a failure. i dont have friends, a job, i feel like i have nothing going for me. i hate myself for thinking this way because i know im probably more privileged than some other people, whom are in harder situations... but i still cant stop feeling sorry for myself and just bedrotting. i really hate myself

 

[em4250]

Feel the same way, but you don't sound like a failure to me. You're still trying to get your degree in spite of how hard it is for you. That's admirable. I know this probably doesn't help though, because getting a degree is something that you're just "expected" to do, so if it's hard it's understandable why you'd feel bad about it. I'm in somewhat of a similar position, I'm turning 21 soon and I technically haven't graduated high school.

 

[Even Flow]

18 is still plenty of time to do something with your life, most adults would still give you some slack and consider you a kid. It's your future not your parents, yeah they may nag and make comment but you're going to be living your life not them. Should just reflect and determine what you really want to be in life.

 

[Misery99]

You are still only 18 years old and you have a whole new future ahead of you. You are not a failure at all and you can definitely be successful in life.