Feeling increasingly emotional lately

[Lost Magic]

I was bawling my eyes out and screaming last night while drinking rum. I was remembering a lot of things in my past, both good and bad and It made me incredibly emotional. I also want to be gone within a year, so I guess that maybe has something to do with me feeling this volatile. It's really, really difficult to leave this world. Honestly. If you have never been this close to the edge it is hard to explain how ones mood can change so rapidly. I need all the strength now I can muster in order to proceed with my journey. However, getting that final bus ticket to an unknown destination is going to be hellavu tough. I just hope I can leave this world knowing that I tried. I tried in vain to live this life but it all caught up with me. I'm sorry. For all of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

You are right that it's so difficult to leave this world, I wish that dying is as easy as just choosing to never wake again. Life really is so cruel. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Lost Magic]

You are right that it's so difficult to leave this world, I wish that dying is as easy as just choosing to never wake again. Life really is so cruel. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering.

Thanks. I hope so too.

 

[Ash’Girl]

I identify with everything you've said (except for me it's vodka).

Living feels like hell. I'm sorry you are going through this.