lavenderlilylies
Student
- Sep 24, 2024
- 126
My heart was crushed into pieces when i recently learned my younger sibling who's 8 sits alone during recess because they have no friends. i also suspect they're being bullied by things they briefly mentioned were said and done by classmates. I brought it up to our mother, she didn't give it much attention.
This sibling in particular was always treated much harsher than the rest of us. We all weren't raised in the best way. i don't remember most of it, but my mom used to put me on the ground and kick me as a discipline method, imagine worst things being done to that little child.
I'm much older than them. So I realize I'm as guilty for what they're enduring. As a child i used to think "how could my mother do this to me", i know when they're older they will think "how could my sister watch me go through this and not protect me", it eats me alive.
I stand up for them as much as i can but the truth is, I'm still scared of my parents too. I've grown to understand them more and they're not terrible people, just misguided, my mother is battling her own demons and i know talking, screaming, and fighting with her won't undo what's already been done or drastically change the future. If she doesn't get help it'll keep happening. It's like she's not even there when she's angry.
I fear a lot for their future, especially the one I mentioned, their behavior screams of a troubled mind and i honestly fear what they might do in the future. Even if they don't end up doing anything horrible, hopefully, I know they'll still have a lot to heal from and that it's partially my fault.
This sibling in particular was always treated much harsher than the rest of us. We all weren't raised in the best way. i don't remember most of it, but my mom used to put me on the ground and kick me as a discipline method, imagine worst things being done to that little child.
I'm much older than them. So I realize I'm as guilty for what they're enduring. As a child i used to think "how could my mother do this to me", i know when they're older they will think "how could my sister watch me go through this and not protect me", it eats me alive.
I stand up for them as much as i can but the truth is, I'm still scared of my parents too. I've grown to understand them more and they're not terrible people, just misguided, my mother is battling her own demons and i know talking, screaming, and fighting with her won't undo what's already been done or drastically change the future. If she doesn't get help it'll keep happening. It's like she's not even there when she's angry.
I fear a lot for their future, especially the one I mentioned, their behavior screams of a troubled mind and i honestly fear what they might do in the future. Even if they don't end up doing anything horrible, hopefully, I know they'll still have a lot to heal from and that it's partially my fault.
