Venting feeling guilty for essentially living a decent, normal life

[mold]

like the title says, i live a normal, decent life. to others around me i'm probably super lucky, i live with a supportive parent in a nice city and no financial worries whatsoever thanks to my family. i have a loving long time partner and nice friends who care about me, a few "talents" and some interests. i can afford my medical bills and can get decent mental help (even though i don't really feel like it helps). despite all this i'm still unhappy, i still want to ctb, and have no motivation to do anything. it makes me feel guilty knowing there are people out there who aren't as privileged as i am and are suffering so much while i'm sitting on my ass comfortably but still wanting to ctb. i know mental health shouldn't be compared, and it isn't a competition yet somehow i still feel guilty. there are people out there who would kill to live my life but i'm too ungrateful i guess.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Think that can be said for many of us. There are always going to be people worse off and some who are better off. I think it's kind to think about the people who have worse afflictions but I don't personally feel you can make yourself feel grateful for your lot- especially if you are depressed. Guilt becomes just another rod to beat yourself with. I do know how you feel- I do sometimes feel it too but like you said- it's not a contest. We can't always fight what we feel- especially when we feel it most or all of the time.

 

[Astral Storm]

I can relate. My life is quite good and in a way I am glad. Others have it much more worse than me but I just want to disappear from here. For me, life is never worth it. I would gladly let someone switch with me but I just want to sleep forever. Either way, I think what you are feeling is totally fine and valid. Suicide should be available for those who want to, no matter the circumstances.

 

[FuneralCry]

You shouldn't feel guilty as after all none of us asked for this life in the first place and we have no obligations to live, it is a personal decision when to leave. Just because others have it worse doesn't mean that you are not allowed to feel the way that you feel. I wish you the best.