Honey0TU
what doesnt kill you, makes you wish you were dead
- Mar 24, 2020
- 9
i finally have friends and that seemed like all i needed in life. but now, im just bored with everything.
i cant say its not enough to have people who i can be myself with. i love talking to them and our daily calls have been great, yknow? but i still dont want to live.
and i actually dont know if i want to die either. ive was planning to ctb soon enough so now that i feel unsure about what i want, i feel empty i guess. knowing this will be the second year of my life stuck inside (the other year being from agoraphobia) is causing me to lose touch with reality.
i do know that if my life is meaningless then i might as well not be here at all. but maybe i can live a bit longer until my group falls apart, despite how much i would hate that happening.
i cant say its not enough to have people who i can be myself with. i love talking to them and our daily calls have been great, yknow? but i still dont want to live.
and i actually dont know if i want to die either. ive was planning to ctb soon enough so now that i feel unsure about what i want, i feel empty i guess. knowing this will be the second year of my life stuck inside (the other year being from agoraphobia) is causing me to lose touch with reality.
i do know that if my life is meaningless then i might as well not be here at all. but maybe i can live a bit longer until my group falls apart, despite how much i would hate that happening.
