Venting Feel stuck, not knowing how to feel

[lostandunfound]

I fucking hate my life with a passion but I don't even know if suicide is the answer. I also feel like living isn't the answer either. I need help but I feel like no help is available. I've tried, it failed, I'm tired. This feels like hell at this point and as time passes it just gets worse.

 

[foxdie]

I feel you. What help have you tried and failed at? If you don't mind me asking, you don't have to say if you don't want to.

 

[Spitfire]

I don't even know if suicide is the answer. I also feel like living isn't the answer either.

I can relate.

 

[SunnyPotato]

this sure is some relatable content, I hope you can find the answers you're looking for. If you do, fill me in pls :')

 

[Panna]

I fucking hate my life with a passion but I don't even know if suicide is the answer. I also feel like living isn't the answer either. I need help but I feel like no help is available. I've tried, it failed, I'm tired. This feels like hell at this point and as time passes it just gets worse.

I feel like its better to not watch your life go to shit, that depressive feeling will consume everything you enjoy if you let it, making you into something of a husk that gets by on pathetic attempts at trying to feel happy again. Its a awful process.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I think the question at hand is the classic question - whether you prefer existence or non-existence. It sounds like living is painful for you and you feel helpless to change it; like there is no path to enjoying existence. You also didn't say that you didn't want non-existence; you said you didn't want suicide. Is it the method of death in particular that concerns you? If you were diagnosed with a terminal illness tomorrow, would it comfort you?