Help Feel like I'm being hunted

[breathingblues]

Well, everyone I reach out to leaves me alone, abandons me and does so very quickly... It's like they can sense something that I'm not at all. I feel they see some sort of monster in me, whilst I can simply never be that.

I don't want to live, but, I can't understand at all why this is happening. My family is keeping my inheritance away from me, right out of college, I have to get a job and loans just to get by.

When I look at this year, all I feel is how can a man like me be so punished... I never did anyone wrong. I pray that I be killed, honestly.

 

[timf]

A lack of friends may not be because people see you as a "monster". If you were rich, you would have many "friends". If you were entertaining or a celebrity you would also have friends. This is because most people are attracted to those who can provide them with something. Real friendship grows to the extent you can find someone with whom you can be a friend to.

You want to be careful about loans. They can accumulate and almost make you a slave.

The transition from college to a work environment can be difficult. If you can secure employment and a steady income, you might be able to work on building a life that you can shape into one that provides comfort and even enjoyment.

Seeing life as what happens to you by others and circumstances can create anxieties. Seeing life as what you can control and choose can do wonders to reduce anxiety.

 

[KlixxFoxe]

Don't worry, friend. Many non-NT (neurotypical) people struggle to communicate with others. I have similar problems and often experience similar emotions. I think the main thing here is to find a hobby or a person who can support you in a difficult moment