Feel guilty not being able to enjoy the moment

[darkwater]

What a beautiful day, it is warm floral scent in the air.
I have no obligations, live in a first world country. Some people drown to come here. And yet this heaviness lies over me. I can't enjoy any of it, I want winter and cold. This beautiful summer weather seems so unnatural. I feel guilty not being able to enjoy it. Is anyone else feeling this way?

 

[FuneralCry]

I really hate the summer weather personally. I have never really enjoyed being alive, I don't know what that would be like. You shouldn't feel guilty. In a life like this, there is no escape from suffering and misery. I also prefer the colder weather. When it's warm it just makes my days feel longer and I feel worse.

 

[rationaltake]

Yes. I only wish I could appreciate it. I would if I wasn't in psychic agony. I'd gladly give my life for somebody who wanted to be here.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

@FuneralCry is right about not feeling guilty or ashamed about your dispreference towards summer. Summer isn't everyone's favorite season. For those with sensory issues, the increasing temperatures, bright sunlight and artificial lighting; and noise levels from greater human activity can be brutal for their psychological wellbeing - even causing and/or worsening physical pain.