Feel awful living.

[Busridin'26]

Feel just awful today honestly. Just alone and unsure.

anxiety deeply alone :( fucked up with my job too so I'm hoping and praying for that...

 

[Deleted member 14573]

I hoping and praying all is fine with your job. We all fuck up with work every now and then.

Sending you lots of hugs

 

[ThreeWords]

Fucking up is so easy to do most of the time. Setbacks can make us feel awful, and anxiety is horrendous. You may feel alone but you're never alone on SS. Always here to chat if needed.

 

[Busridin'26]

I feel so aloneeee like I want someone to talk to 1 on 1 help me help myself off this cliff of somehow being "stuck" here... like... girl...
Thread ima update for the day so I'm not making a thousand....

I feel crappy and stuck and just lost. Don't wanna leave and ruin my chances but I also just do not wanna stay stuck to all of this. I dunnnooooooo I need help and this is only half way helpful :(

 

[Despondent]

No matter how alone you may feel, we're all here for you from a distance

We all make mistakes so don't be too hard on yourself

 

[Busridin'26]

It's just really hitting me hard today. I am so so anxious and scared here at my moms and my dads is just empty it's the exact opposite but still just as awful

I feel a hot fucking mess and I just cannot rn omg.. I dunno what line to contact rn to just speak to someone and be reassured ik so many numbers and yet...

 

[draw a circle]

Hell man sounds like you're having a rough day... if it wasn't midnight rn where I live I would offer to talk but alas I'm super sleepy right now lol. You can message me anytime though, I hope things will get better soon

 

[Busridin'26]

I'm like at the cross road of fucking apathy and complete despair. I wanna RIP into my skin but nothing serves me except staying quiet.
I cannot self soothe so I'm gonna try to stay faded. Lost my ID sooo that's a lil hard but shall see :)

humans aren't meant to live alone. I'm slipping into empty but I cannot bc then I cannot life so I'm dangling today sucks I don't see it improving until the weekend maybe. Fuckkkk dying rn just feels like such an injustice. Like if I cut myself it isn't for me. It's just for them. I'm soooo ugh and it doesn't matter just stay quiet sad depressed there is no room for anything else here.

 

[Busridin'26]

Man... I think being so close to death all the time makes all these times serious:..

I'm waiting on my meds to knock me out at 7pm and I could go on about the problems I'm dealing with and the steps I'm taking but truthfully my brain and I area OVER IT.

I haven't fought death this hard in a bit but I'm honestly very clear on where I stand.

It's taking all of me.

I'm so out of it in that usual way but I could plan my death perfectly right now. I know moving means nothing bc it's such a hard wait for nothing. It's a little wait for the smallest thing. It means a bit but not enough and I'm at a point where I am dying just having to wait to die.

Just needs see a few days out and see some "good" things come through.

It literally doesn't matter though. This is it. I can finally drown and see myself to a death by drowning. I can live and die all at the same time.
It is heavy tho.

I kno when I wake i won't feel better or even more rested I'm just hoping for a different tomorrow. I will empty myself in effort. Then at least it's justified when I go.

This may be coming across incoherent for a number of reasons. Sue me ‍

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Anxiety and loneliness are eating me alive ngl I have no idea how to solve this shit

 

[Busridin'26]

I barely slept and every time I got into a sleep I jolted awake...

I don't have anything else to say