fear

[Art92]

I am very scared. The last days with the realization that I might not succeed. This fear is reflected in my behavior. How to pull yourself together?

 

[lastlife_]

I get it.. I feel like tomorrow will be my next attempt (partial hanging) and I get moments throughout the day where it feels like my heart sinks and I have that realisation like.. 'I really have to do this, fuck, how am I gonna manage this or pull it off this time..'

I find reading other cases helps calm my nerves. Often I'll go to the Wikipedia of 'list of suicides' or 'list of suicides by hanging' to see what their circumstances were, but they're usually celebrities or notable people on Wiki so I also search suicide on google and break it down by news so I can read average Joe cases, too.

 

[Art92]

I tried your method yesterday, but it didn't work. Now I am leaving for another city in a couple of weeks. I will rent a room on the 46th floor and take SN. If SN doesn't work, then I'll jump.

 

[lastlife_]

I tried your method yesterday, but it didn't work. Now I am leaving for another city in a couple of weeks. I will rent a room on the 46th floor and take SN. If SN doesn't work, then I'll jump.

I assume exploding head feeling or back out was the reason it didn't work? At least you have a couple of weeks to prep or plan before your next try.. I wish you luck

 

[Art92]

Я предполагаю, что причиной того, что это не сработало, было ощущение взрывающейся головы или падения? По крайней мере, у вас есть пара недель на подготовку или планирование перед следующей попыткой .. Желаю вам удачи

только головокружение и помутнение зрения

 

[FuneralCry]

Methods can fail, but of course many people have succeeded in ctb. I think knowledge and planning of the method is needed to be successful. Of course nobody should have to resort to methods that could fail in the first place, we all deserve a reliable, peaceful exit, but in my case I will read about my chosen method in order to feel more confident. I think when the time comes for me to ctb, I will be desperate by that point as of course ctb is very difficult. I think that mindset of complete hopelessness will mean I am able to go through with it. I wish you the best, whatever happens.