Venting Failing at the greatest challenge of my life

[Painless_end]

I have failed at the greatest most important challenge of my life many years back. There's no going back to undo things.

Pro-lifers and well-adjusted people say to everyone "Just learn from the past and don't make the same mistakes again and keep your eyes on the present to make a great future"

Sadly, it isn't true in my situation. When the moment of great challenge arose many years ago, I proved inadequate. I let something go which I shouldn't have. Now it's gone forever.

I had the chance to change my life but I felt mentally under-prepared.

Now it's all gone to hell. My career and my life. And no, it's not recoverable. There was a life flow attached to making that choice that would have made me a completely different person. But since it felt so "hard", I had to let it go. I stood around doing nothing and the opportunity went away forever.

You ever wish you could just close your eyes and lean back in your chair and die of sadness ? That's what I wish every single day now.

 

[Circles]

I understand that most certainly. I just went for a job interview recently and now realize that I'm still unable to even work given my chronic backpain and other issues. Any new challenges I face becomes just a wall instead of a hurdle to go through. I wish we both can get through this somehow. Hugs.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless. Our decisions can ruin our lives and this life can be so depressing as we cannot go back in time and change things. I can imagine that it must be devastating being in that situation. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[CommitSudoku]

It would be nice if my sadness would let me die not just live in torture. I wish that every day as well.

I feel the same that there are some things impossible to recover. So even if the same mistakes are avoided, what's done can't be fixed. For me I think even if I changed things this consistent decay of my mind would get me eventually. I wish I wasn't so tired and would go through with something. Remaining here like this is exhausting.