I feel like such a failure, as a wife, nurse, daughter, sister etc!!!
I'm so messed up, so depressed, so traumatised and it will never end.
Loosing my horse was horrific, I had to stand there while he was shot, my heart has been ripped out and it really is the final straw.
I had him cremated and I'm waiting to have him back and then I want to go and be with him, I too want to be cremated and then my ashes mixed with him.
everybody in life let's me down in the end, hurts me and betrays me.
my husband tries to tell me he would be lost without me, but then he said what I put him through is like emotional abuse. He doesn't deserve that, no one does, he may not think it, but he will be better off without me, they all will!!!
I was once Happy, successful, loved, liked and now what!!! Mental health has robbed me of everything, I hate the world and I disgrace myself.
It has to end very soon!!!!!
I'm so messed up, so depressed, so traumatised and it will never end.
Loosing my horse was horrific, I had to stand there while he was shot, my heart has been ripped out and it really is the final straw.
I had him cremated and I'm waiting to have him back and then I want to go and be with him, I too want to be cremated and then my ashes mixed with him.
everybody in life let's me down in the end, hurts me and betrays me.
my husband tries to tell me he would be lost without me, but then he said what I put him through is like emotional abuse. He doesn't deserve that, no one does, he may not think it, but he will be better off without me, they all will!!!
I was once Happy, successful, loved, liked and now what!!! Mental health has robbed me of everything, I hate the world and I disgrace myself.
It has to end very soon!!!!!
