Venting Extreme drug cravings

[19andOverdue]

I use drugs to self-medicate my baseline of chronic suicidality. I can't stay sober and not dissociate just to stay sane. I hate the feeling of my body I feel sick and empty. Life is so blank and meaningless without being high.

I have to wait a few days until I can re-up, I'm a poly-addict so I take anything and everything whenever I need it. but I'm supposed to face the hell of being broke, suicidal, and sober for the next couple sleepless nights. All I can do now is cut myself and hope I can escape the prison of my mind.

 

[waitingforrest]

Same here. I don't understand how people stay sane in a world like this without drugs. Whenever trying to stay sober from one addiction I pick up five more. I hope withdrawal is kind to you, quiting can be like cuting a lifeline, staying sober is like having to face all your problems at once with no way to ignore them.

 

[tilsleepcomes]

I fantasize about drugs every day to escape, and if I encounter an opportunity I know the impulse will be obeyed.

Thing is, I think the rebound from getting completely fucked up might just put me over the edge and I CTB.

 

[Judy Garland]

I take kratom on a regular basis, every 4 hours. It only brings me to baseline, which is still wanting to die, but it keeps my head up a little bit.

 

[annique]

me too, i've been getting into drugs recently, and whenever i can't get the illegal ones i resort to overdosing on medications and such

just can't be sober in this world any longer