Venting Extreme bad luck

[Painless_end]

Pro-lifers always say, life is not about giving up, work hard and succeed.

But I consider it bad luck that I am like this in the first place where all I wish for is death.

I consider it bad luck that I can't get motivated about anything and that my basic nature - which cannot be changed - is so abnormal and averse to the challenges of life. Has always been in fact.

I hate my entire being. Even though I wasn't like this before when I was younger.

But as an adult, and a poorly adjusted one, I hate my entire being.

I dislike who I am, I dislike my existence.

I keep hoping to have a sudden brain aneurysm or something that kills me immediately without much pain.

But it never happens.

 

[lobster salad]

Humans are full of sh*t at what they say in response to how we feel because they want to help but realize they can't. Maybe try getting a lucky charm or something x see my advice is as stupid as the rest. That proves my point I guess :(

 

[FuneralCry]

In this life everything is determined by luck and chance. Many people are disadvantaged through no fault of their own. It is all very unfair. It can be dreadful living a life you hate so much. I know that it can be a hopeless feeling when you know that things will never get better. I also hope to pass away peacefully without pain, I have suffered enough. I wish you the best.