Ex assaulted me

[misakimaze]

my partner that i lived with Sa'd me a few months ago. i really didnt say anything because i didnt want to leave him. people can hurt me in any type of way and id still stick around because im scared of being alone. i thought he was a good guy but iguess recently hes showing his true colors hahahaha. he kicked me out and stuff so i think i wanna go throuugh with CTB it sucks. im an idiot and idiots like me deserve this fate.

 

[CatLvr]

I'm really sorry he did that to you. I know it hurts your heart but he didn't love you, he used you. You are not an idiot and nobody deserves to be mistreated like that.

 

[existentiallinguine]

Wow, I honestly didn't expect someone to post the same reason leading me to ctb. Mine was in August, he left in November. I am so sorry you're going through this. You are not an idiot, there are so many women like us who have been taken advantage of. It is not a crime to want to be loved. I know how you feel, after being used an object you start to feel inanimate. I have been reading a book called "Girls Play Dead" about the fawn response, it goes in depth about how your body is doing the best it can to keep you safe after the experience, which is why a lot of us end up justifying their actions and staying. I think it will really resonate with you if you're a reader. It made me feel a lot less pathetic after asking myself what the hell was wrong with me. The truth is nothing is wrong with you, everything is wrong with this man.