Everyone thinks I'm doing better but they don't know the truth

[Ednospatient]

For a while, everyone I've been interacting with has said I'm doing noticeably better than before. But they don't know the truth. I pretend to be more energetic so when I finally do it it'll be a surprise. I have SN stashed away in a safe place and I intend to use it within the next 6 months.

 

[setup]

It is your life so u can decide but have u considered what the root cause?

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course people can only know about what they can see and hear. I see it as best to keep things to myself rather than tell others how I am truly feeling. I wish you the best, whatever happens. If your decision is to leave, then I hope you find peace.

 

[Crazy4u]

I don't know the reasons for your suffering but I hope good things come your way within the next 6 months.

 

[OrcWitch]

It's difficult putting on an energetic act. I can see why you would, it gets them off your back.

 

[myopybyproxy]

Same. My mother tells me I am clinging to my depression when I tell her I am not better. I am still struggling , She is insistent that the homeopathy has worked - it is just suagr pills. Maybe it works for her bt I do not notie any differnce. Have been plannign to die more or less for almost five years now. Three years since the first attempt. I will do it right this time. After I die she will realise she was clinging to an illusion about the offspring she wanted to ahve raised, rather than the person I became.