I regret so much that I didnt ctb 2 weeks ago. I thought somw things would get better but I was wrong. Everyday things are getting worse. My life got worse. I had a great chance to ctb but I backed out. Next time I have a chance I WON'T HESITATE A SECOND. I WON'T THINK IT TWICE. The only thing I do is make wrong decitions. I'm tired of all this. I just want to end it right now if I could. Thanks for reading. Good night to everyone.
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Flippy
Felis Sapien
- Jan 5, 2020
- 931
What's gotten worse? I remember how upset you were in your other thread. I'm sorry things have gotten worse :-(
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,024
I'm sorry to hear about your situation and yes, things are shitty in this shitty world. 
I do hope you find peace when you get a chance in the future.
I do hope you find peace when you get a chance in the future. I'm sorry things have gotten worse. If you hesitated before then perhaps you were not ready to go. It's always good to stop ctb if you don't feel comfortable with it.
randomz
Specialist
- Nov 4, 2019
- 395
I feel you, I am in the same situation - giving myself just a bit more time, things getting a bit better and then BAM! plummeting back down to the depths of Depression and killer anxiety. I was on the verge of slicing my throat, over a mistake I did at work (not a big mistake, but not a small one either, and I am the only one to blame for that) just an hour ago. My self-loathing is at an all time peak right now. :D
