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iWantToStopExisting

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Apr 28, 2026
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I'm saving up money to afford a train trip to a city with skyscrapers for jumping once my time comes. I can't right now because my mom is still alive. She's old (almost 80) and sick so i might have to wait 10 or 15 years but i made it to 43 so i can make it for an additional 1/4 of that time i think. I can't hurt her by dying before her. The thought of her having to bury me breaks my heart
Why do you give a shit about your parents. All your failures in this life it's because of them. They were incapable to provide you with decent upbringing. Didn't give you the tools to succeed in this life. We are all products of our environment. As kids we are totally dependent on them. They are the one who create our environment. They are responsible for us, for our developmental years. It's all their fault. All this stupid bitches and dickheads mating like some fucking rabbits.
The reason i want to ctb is exactly for that. Make the degenerate animals suffer.
 
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Dejected 55

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May 7, 2025
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Hypothermia, yes. Doesn't have to be frozen... just cold enough. When you're immersed in it like that, your body will lose heat rapidly because the water at that low temperature can take all your body heat and more and still be virtually the same cold temperature, so you can die fairly quickly if it is cold enough.

Here's an interesting video about water diving danger...

 
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Bishop

Member
Mar 24, 2024
49
There is not one method that fits for everyone. I think most people want something that's peaceful, since we are all (or many of us are) suffering and in pain. But that option does not exist. We are just left wondering how to move forward.
 
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thefirstluminary

thefirstluminary

never knows best
Mar 9, 2026
37
Why do you give a shit about your parents. All your failures in this life it's because of them. They were incapable to provide you with decent upbringing. Didn't give you the tools to succeed in this life. We are all products of our environment. As kids we are totally dependent on them. They are the one who create our environment. They are responsible for us, for our developmental years. It's all their fault. All this stupid bitches and dickheads mating like some fucking rabbits.
The reason i want to ctb is exactly for that. Make the degenerate animals suffer.
Why say something so mean? You can't just hate your parents for having you. Yes, some are abusive, but plenty actually care for their kids. kouna doesn't hate his mom, so why traumatize her like this? She's already seen so much death and hardship, and burying her son is the absolute last thing she deserves
Hypothermia, yes. Doesn't have to be frozen... just cold enough. When you're immersed in it like that, your body will lose heat rapidly because the water at that low temperature can take all your body heat and more and still be virtually the same cold temperature, so you can die fairly quickly if it is cold enough.

Here's an interesting video about water diving danger...


That's actually amazing. I guess that means dying in freezing water is way faster than freezing normally. Sadly, there's no ocean around here, lol
I also watched the video
There is not one method that fits for everyone. I think most people want something that's peaceful, since we are all (or many of us are) suffering and in pain. But that option does not exist. We are just left wondering how to move forward.
There's no such thing as a painless way out. Dying is going to hurt no matter what, and even a sudden death isn't completely without pain. I'm just trying to figure out a way that won't fail... I think I can endure it
 
tonicer

tonicer

Experienced
Nov 13, 2025
261
Why do you give a shit about your parents. All your failures in this life it's because of them. They were incapable to provide you with decent upbringing. Didn't give you the tools to succeed in this life. We are all products of our environment. As kids we are totally dependent on them. They are the one who create our environment. They are responsible for us, for our developmental years. It's all their fault. All this stupid bitches and dickheads mating like some fucking rabbits.
The reason i want to ctb is exactly for that. Make the degenerate animals suffer.
I care only about my mom. She lets her 43 year old looser of a son stay in her house and she always put me first. My dad probably hates me or is at least disgusted by how much of a looser i am but my mom genuinely loves me. It sucks that your parents were both not there for you and i know plenty of other people who had similarly bad parents but my mom really is different. Also rabbits have more than two kids.
 
thefirstluminary

thefirstluminary

never knows best
Mar 9, 2026
37
I care only about my mom. She lets her 43 year old looser of a son stay in her house and she always put me first. My dad probably hates me or is at least disgusted by how much of a looser i am but my mom genuinely loves me. It sucks that your parents were both not there for you and i know plenty of other people who had similarly bad parents but my mom really is different. Also rabbits have more than two kids.
Don't listen to him. It's always people like this who have bad experiences with their parents, and they project that onto literally everyone else's lives when that's not the case at all
 
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