Every day i get closer to my death, intentional or not.

[Sick of it all]

This is my only consultation in life. I know when I wake, damnit why couldn't I die in my sleep, that I am a day closer to death. Either by my own hand or nature. I have learned a lot about death, as many people I have known have died. Now I sit here, waiting my turn as I trudge through my waking hours. I have a feeling I'll CTB before nature decides to take me. I suspect I'll live to be 100 unless I take matters in my hands. Sorry to vent put like this but I just had to.

 

[catflowers]

this applies to everyone on earth

 

[Sick of it all]

this applies to everyone on earth

That it does. Just hits harder today for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do find the thought of non existence to be comforting, how no matter what one day I will be gone and I will not have to suffer anymore. It's all humans are destined for anyway, which is why death should never be feared. I see no point to suffering all for the sake of it just to die eventually anyway and the thought of existing until old age is so horrifying. The life expectancy is far too long. I also hope to just pass away in my sleep so I don't have to endure this existence anymore.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

This is my only consultation in life. I know when I wake, damnit why couldn't I die in my sleep, that I am a day closer to death. Either by my own hand or nature. I have learned a lot about death, as many people I have known have died. Now I sit here, waiting my turn as I trudge through my waking hours. I have a feeling I'll CTB before nature decides to take me. I suspect I'll live to be 100 unless I take matters in my hands. Sorry to vent put like this but I just had to.

I have a similar frustration… My body atrophy is from moving so little during the day and my walk has been reduced to an old man shuffle but I realize that people can live like this for decades as impoverished shut ins…. Dying of despair and neglect is way too slow….