Epic fail

[keyakizaka]

Tonight i was gonna ctb by jumping off a high tower in my town but i started to get super anxious and never left my house. so i chose to do my first method (full suspension). i had everything set up and i even tested it before by pulling on the rope. i tried once and the rope collapsed so i had to set it back up. i tried again but started panicking when i was hanging and couldn't breathe. i managed to get back up on the chair. now i'm dizzy and have a headache. i'm so tired of living but i can't even succeed at dying. i don't know what else to try at this point.

 

[FuneralCry]

Taking our own lives is hard, I get that. I would do anything for a peaceful way out. It can be an awful feeling, when we feel as though we are out of options. It is like being trapped. I wish you well.