Venting Endless Longing

[RoseGirl]

I feel so lonely and empty and alone. I just wanna be filled up and made whole. This feeling of loneliness is hellish to deal with but I think the more i indulge in it the worse its going to get.
I don't have any friends and really struggle to do anything outside of texting people.
When i was a lot younger I'd spend a significant amount of my time gaming but for the last 4 years I've barely been able to bring myself to play anything.
The desire to be with my girlfriend to be loved my her is so overwhelming. But so is the desire for any love at all. It's basically the only activity I partake in and is the only one i find for filling :c

I wish i wasn't so lonely...

 

[Blueberry Panic]

I feel the same most days , just a longing for my gf and to not be alone . It gets really rough when I'm a room full of people and I still feel alone

 

[BPDtgirl]

i know this feeling well, it doesn't matter who's around anymore the loneliness never really goes away

 

[Apokryphiel]

There's nothing worse than being alone. The only people who think otherwise just haven't experienced it long enough, if at all. Why were we given such great minds if only to never truly understand one another? Will any of us ever really not be alone? I just don't think it's possible, at least not in life. I often dream about committing suicide together with someone who means everything, becoming one with them and breaking free from this godforsaken life. I think that is the only way any of us could ever truly be together - only as one.

 

[bhaloo]

I find being lonely painful. but I understand why I am lonely. I was lesser than the rest of humanity. that is why no one wants to be with me. Had I been any good may be there would be someone who wants to be with me. My loneliness is a proof of my worthlessness.

 

[alwaysalone]

I must be really weird I love being alone. People tend to annoy me after awhile even when I love them.

 

[Lily6759]

I also have a lot of issues being alone. Whenever I find someone I love, I get attached to them and cling to them really strongly. Over the past 5 years I've been really alone and found no one I felt connected to. I thought I had beaten my attachment and abandonment issues, but the moment I found someone I love, they came flooding right back. And the more I indulge it, the worse it gets.
I'm lucky enough the my girlfriend is really patient with me and accommodating of my issues, but when she isn't around, the loneliness hits a lot harder due to those issues growing so much from indulging my need for affection and attention.

I don't think I could go back to loneliness I dealt with before for so many years, I can barely deal with it now when I am alone when my gf is asleep or just absent. You just kind of have to deal with it, and hope it doesn't end up becoming too much. :/

 

[StupidCat]

You got a partner yet you feel lonely? how's that work

 

[Lily6759]

You got a partner yet you feel lonely? how's that work

Loneliness doesn't go away with spending time with a partner on occasion. A lot of people in the same place as her normally end up getting that way due to neglect in childhood, as well just growing up around the wrong kind of people and never really feeling understood. I say that mainly from my own experience, but also the experience of others that I have heard from.
The loneliness goes away in the moment that you are with your partner, or messaging them, or being shown love. But rarely does it stay gone. It always comes back, you end up feeling just as alone as you did before meeting your partner, because they aren't actively there to stop it from appearing in your head

 

[k1m]

I must be really weird I love being alone. People tend to annoy me after awhile even when I love them.

You love it so much that you feel the need to post about it in the suicide forum... You love it so much you made it your username in the suicide forum...

asgoiwuvqjp

 

[alwaysalone]

You love it so much that you feel the need to post about it in the suicide forum... You love it so much you made it your username in the suicide forum...

asgoiwuvqjp

Are you trting to insinuate im lying? My reasons for suicide have nothing to do with being lonely and my username is such because often wish I was. You seem very presumptuous and rude. Why does it bother you when someone is ok with being alone?

 

[Griever]