Dumb AND cowardly

[everhopeless]

Too dumb to live, too cowardly to die. I think about not being here all the time but I'm too scared to do anything about it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just because you are unable to go through with ctb doesn't mean that you are cowardly, ctb is very difficult after all, I am trapped in this world as it is so hard to leave. All that I want is to be gone as well, I have never wanted to live, but the fear of failure is what holds me back from doing it. We all deserve the option of a peaceful and reliable way to exit at a time of our own choosing. I'm sorry that you are suffering and I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Don't beat yourself up. Ctb is a very hard decision and living its also very challenging. I wish you the best.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

That doesn't make you a coward. It makes you human. Or, more accurately, proves your human. It's hard. If you still have even the smallest amount of hope, it's about impossible. Hope might take you back to good, at least better, times. You haven't shared yet why you want to ctb. That would be a good start. Then others can be more pointed with their responses to you.

 

[everhopeless]

I just hurt all the time, emotionally, even though my life is good. I've tried many medications and modalities and nothing helps. There is a very manipulative woman at work who is making my life a living hell.