Drugs

[stellabelle]

How many of you are current or past drug users?

And if so, what was/is your drug of choice?

I like opiates.
Former use.
And marijuana if you count that as a drug.
Would use currently but not obtainable here.

 

[lululoo]

Used to smoke a lot of weed.
Coke a handful of times.
Ayahuasca twice (terrible).
Mushrooms a few times. I have thought of doing it again (I chase after miracle depression cures sometimes even though history has shown nothing helps me)... but I am a little scared to because of being depressed. Even though I was depressed when doing it before, I wasn't quite as bad, and I had a few avenues for hope in life (one of them being the psychedelics themselves). Now I have no hope about the drugs or any area of my life and I feel so alone in the universe that I think a trip could go badly.

 

[Floraknife]

LSD is the one thing I refuse to try it fucked my father up and gave him HPPD which I'm scared I'll get if I tried lsd

I have HPPD and PTSD symptoms from several bad trips (still relentless, from over 1.5 years ago) ain't no joke it's messed up my ability to function x100. Especially never partake in psychedelics with a stranger, that was my mistake, dude purposely tried to fuck me up as much as possible (with movie content/mind games/violence/isolating me etc) obv not caring about my pre-existing shitty mental health. My brain is a trainwreck and I've been permanently paranoid/antisocial since :/

Mushrooms and MDA/MDMA were always my favorite though, and I smoked weed every day for years, it's largely what kept me going before I dug this hole for myself. I seem to react more positively to naturally occurring drugs, it's weird, is anyone else like that too??

But yeah tried everything from snorting ritalin to huffing airduster to coke and speed (once had a 7 day no-sleep speed binge how TF did 3 people survive that?) and one DMT trip (honestly was insanely cool, and profoundly deepened my state of mind/perception of reality but I wasn't ready & have been worse off ever since - hallucinogens of any kind should be treated with a clear understanding and intent of humility and respect imo)

Moral of the story: living your life in a permanent "yolo" is a bad idea y'all. Idk why I typed all that it's not terribly interesting or insightful lol

 

[Floraknife]

To those afraid of psychedelics, DMT is the way to go. Ive had HPPD from it and recovered fully, HPPD ftom LSD is a different story I wouldnt risk it. I want to try heroin mainly now

DMT did not make a dent in my HPPD acquired from LSD lol

 

[Floraknife]

Oh and been an alcoholic since I was 15 but hey shit happens

 

[Madame Psychosis]

I used to smoke weed on a daily basis. It killed my motivation to do my coursework or even go out and socialize, but goddamn, that stuff is heavenly. Now I smoke a few times a month.

A girl I went to high school with introduced me to LSD. The first time we tripped together, it was at the end of a hiking trail somewhere in the mountains, on a ridge that overlooked some lakes. The beauty of the landscape made me forget my depression for the first time since childhood. The second time I tripped was a few weeks after my first attempt, still awfully depressed that I didn't succeed but confident a tab would set me right. This girl and I went out into the woods again, to a different spot. I ended up crying on the ground for hours because I felt like I couldn't breathe, like someone was strangling me.

Had a phase when I abused DXM. Took a ton of Xanax for a bit. Nowadays I just drink alcohol way too much way too often.

 

[JJ-NOHOPE]

I was so squeaky clean most of my life. Have done some experimentation lately though.

However, how are you people getting some of these drugs? Would kill to get some tramadol and oxy. But doctors just aren't prescribing these things anymore and I don't have any contacts.

Any thoughts on how to find some contacts?

 

[CJM]

Used to smoke weed quite a bit, have done acid and chewed on mushrooms. Haven't done any drugs in years though because of a variety of reasons but when the referendum to legalize weed happens in 2020 I'll go outside and have that joint..or bong.

 

[wxtyubidi7y]

I did dxm a while back, for the first time since I became chronically suicidal, and I had repeated intrusive suicidal thoughts during the trip that were unpleasant and dramatic and tragic rather than just normal and commonplace like they usually are. It felt a bit like I was stepping outside of myself and realising for the first time the significance of the fact that I had actually acquired a bona fide long-term death wish. Not a pleasant experience overall.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I do drugs, started to experiment with them back in September. My favorite drug so far is cocaine. I'm in control though. Very important if you do highly addictive drugs. I usually wait weeks after a coke high to prevent addiction and tolerance. I don't like weed though, very weird but for some reason I don't like the effects of it. I know it's a very popular drug. I also don't like alcohol. I feel numb and I lose control over my abilities when I'm drunk. I don't like that. But Coke is great because you have a clear mind. And it makes you feel good.

 

[Norest4thewicked]

I smoke weed every day! Coke now and then

 

[wxtyubidi7y]

Now I stick to mild 'lifestyle drugs' which are fairly safe to do daily, like kava, blue/pink lotus, and weed. I'm not addicted to any drug in particular but definitely have an itch to alter my consciousness somehow every day.

 

[kkatt]

I was addicted to Heroin for almost 20 years. The thing that got me free of it was being confined to prison (where I chose not to use it) and the access to good healthcare that I received there.
Like most addicts,I used just about every other drug that I could find but that was the one that truly had me in its grip.
I also managed,quite recently, to give myself a stroke using too much coke.
The misery of being an addict was my whole reason for Being involved in this community.

 

[Broken]

Smoked weed for 15 years. Didn't realise I was just existing instead of living. Lost someone that really cared and loved me because I couldn't stop my drug addiction. I guess it took losing her to get me off drugs. doesnt make it any easier though.

 

[Broken]

Life is boring. Fortunes are spent trying to make it interesting. Getting wasted passes time but doesn't make it any more interesting.
When you lie on your deathbed,all you have left are the memories. Those few happy moments that made life worthwhile. Those are the things that make you truly "rich".
Treasure them because they are everything. It's what your time on this earth was really about.

This quote is so true.

 

[Dead_Inside]

wish i could afford that stuff.. sounds awesome :)

It's good. Helps me escape this hell so it's worth the price. But it's tricky.... it only lets me have a brief respite- won't be kind enough to just let me shuffle off this mortal coil....

 

[Dead_Inside]

I was so squeaky clean most of my life. Have done some experimentation lately though.

However, how are you people getting some of these drugs? Would kill to get some tramadol and oxy. But doctors just aren't prescribing these things anymore and I don't have any contacts.

Any thoughts on how to find some contacts?

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